Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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hest borned on 07.04.xxxx, crazily in love with maths and dogs. is labelled nerdy and hardworking need of frens =D totally treasure them.

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Friday, November 30, 2007
11/30/2007 05:57:00 pm

m i still the person i m?









huijin and i






oh man its been really long since i was last with er...and awww...really miss her. today was really a good day that i have been waiting for the whole week. i was out with HUIJIN!!! =D and we chatted and chatted and chatted.

we went to causeway to eat pastamania, den after that we watched enchanted. it was all about the poweer of true love kiss. lolx. it was kinda touching and it was also hilarious. lolx. but still. it was fun =) but i was freaking cold. i actually din bring my own water and i was drinking a medium size ICE lemon tea. i came out frozen! ><

den after that we went to bugis. lolx. and we each gt a shirt. the shirt is cute. it reads: Act your age, not your shoe size. lolx. and huijin actually has not been to bugis street before. oh wells i shall be the nice one and bring her there.

she din change much...so i really have a good time...it was like going back to the old long lost memories...and reappearing now here about six years later. it is really nice...i like her company. =D

pri sch life...with all the fellow frens...i miss them.

i m not really sure if i changed much...but huijin sae that now i seem more pessimistic. i was not as 'happy-go-lucky' that type. yea...maybe as the years go by...i think more...and i become sadder...but today i m really very happy already. i was kinda smiling the whole way. it was comfortable to be with you , huijin. THANK YOU! <3

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Thursday, November 29, 2007
11/29/2007 10:26:00 am

sick.

ok i m not really ill...just feeling alittle sick. =/
haiz. dun like it at home. i wanna go out. but i also dun want to like go to sch just to hand in my zuowen. so THANK YOU ARIEL! =) and VERON too lolx. cuz you will be the one who is going to help me to hand in. thank you so much.

nid to study study study. i dunno i m kinda sick of studying so i m looking forward to tmr...going out with huijin. awww...i miss huijin. =/

and i think now 933 gt some prob... there are sounds and there is music. and i kinda think that it is cuz the dj forgt to off the thing. omg serious serious mistake. lolx.

oh wells. i better get back to my chem and physics >< and well yesterday did zuowen do until....*giddy* lolx. haiz...yea oh wells. just typing for the sake of typing...oh wells.

oh yea i forgt to add. yesterday the timeline quiz, rv totally own. lolx. all four of our teams gt into the top eight lah and den we gt into the next round. it is so wrong, about three quarters of my paper was totally tikam one. and den omg we all actually gt in 0.o lolx. totally weird. but yea the next round is sat. and den it is around cbd area. hope it duzzen rain! =/

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Tuesday, November 27, 2007
11/27/2007 09:57:00 pm

pictures.


how can i forgt about pictures! XX

anyway here they are:


charm and me!
charm look damn mature!
haha. MAURITANIA!!! =) but oh wells. let's see...Haoyu OBVIOUSLY love to bully me. and den behind him is timothy, den jonathan who was blocked by zongguo's hand to shoot haoyu! lolx. den me and charm. =D
and us. sonjia, maggie, me, jenny and mint.

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Monday, November 26, 2007
11/26/2007 10:53:00 am

hols finally.

haiz. charm is out in USA...

finally i m at home...and do not have to return to sch. izzt it lovely? =)

yesterday decided to put braces. was really considering very hard...dr koh was telling me if don't pluck teeth den can only push my two front teeth back by 3mm...and it is the same price as plucking the teeth and pushing in everything. lol. i dun want to waste money so i kinda agreed to do the second one which is the whole process which charm went through. i dunno if i will regret it but i was thinking no matter what i would still have to do it. this option has been presented to me since i was young because of my two front teeth, and i can't deny that they are really big. ahhh..genes. lolx.

i read finish harry potter bk 7. which in a way means i finish up the entire harry potter series. is it good? well at least i know that i fulfill my wish i re-reading the whole series from the start till the end. fred, lupin and tonks died. but it was still happy ending. dumbledore din seem that bad after all and snape was actually not bad at all...well his purpose was good but den yea...he still din like harry as much...and oh my i din noe he actually like lily lolx. it sure was a twist. =) there wasn't so much of ginny in there then i expected...i tot she will be like the main person already...since the build up in bk 6. oh wells its over and i shall return to my history.

i just hope that i will be able to finish most of my hwk today or this week in a way because this whole hols, i only have TWO WEEKS to finish up my hwk...my revision and omg there is physics test when sch reopen. HESTER FOCUS! ><

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Sunday, November 25, 2007
11/25/2007 12:44:00 am

THIMUN-Singapore 07

thimun started and ended. it seems so fast. i was looking forward to it and now it is over. i met friends many friends, i learn many many content on the current affairs. and really grew quite a lot. only regret is that i din speak up as much as i wanted.

last year's was, i dunno more fun, because there were quite a lot of singaporean delegation and i was able to talk to them and all that kinda things...this time it was more of foreigners...and den they have this accent which is weird. for the first day seriously i dunno what they were talking about at all. =/ feeling kinda bad now..but still yea...but at least now, after the conference i do understand what they were saying =) There is improvment ok!!!

and yea. jiawei =) i din forgt you.
and in the closing ceremony we were clapping (in almost every other speech) for the admin. seriously ;)

charmaine is gone for the US. CHARMAINE I NEED YOU!!! haiz. lucky jiamin is back from hk. or else i really dunno what i m gonna do without charm and jiamin...

oh wells now that thimun is over i guess it is time i finish my harry potter (oh yea did i mention i was at the last bk. oh man damn exciting). and den the timeline quiz...and den HWK!!! freak! =/ haiz. alright. let's get going its 1am.

WOOTS ITS THE SUNDAY =D

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Sunday, November 18, 2007
11/18/2007 06:48:00 pm

NRP

finally NRP is over. =)
the NRP symposium was yesterday =) and it ended already =) lolx haha. but den i m feeling damn guilty for not knowing how to explain all those kinda things. chenlu was the one who was explaining all the way and i feel damn guilty!!! ><
and i just finish my commonwealth essay. it is two full pages. oo
haha. and i m reading bk six of harry potter. i think i m really llike addicted to it already lah...feeling lik how the bk harry potter feels. i feels like how he feels. it is creepy. but i like it lolx
tmr is the china talk thingy. oh wells nid to be in blazers =/ den it is THIMUN.
actually i m feeling very very guilty because it is like i m being too direct with my fellow delegates...i just hope that they are not offended...i just can't stop myself from talking online. well maybe it is cuz i like typing.
so i type and type and type...haha
haiz. i think really will miss ms cheng. haben gt a chance to tell him yet. wonder what he will sae. oh man. =/

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Thursday, November 15, 2007
11/15/2007 12:33:00 pm

finally

lolx. finally today i do not have to go to sch at all. oh man i have been loooking forward to today like a hell long time!!! =D

just watched finish two movies (at home) so feeling very good. but bad at the same time...I WAS SLACKING!!! i haben do my reso, i haben do my speech for NRP and i haben research for the timeline challenge!!! ><><>< ok...

yuppx. its been really long since i last blogged lah. den it is like these few days, i met lots of nice thimun frens who are really nice. i wanna apologise for being to direct at times...and keep asking questions because NO ONE IS DOIN THE ISSUE THAT I M DOING!!! ><>< but i dun mind adding some details into your resolution. really seriously.

oh wells. i better get started with my reso.

P.S. rv-thimun-ppl look at the gmail acct i sent some things there ;)

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Sunday, November 11, 2007
11/11/2007 03:50:00 pm

chalet =)

i love the fire at the bbq pit.
yesterday i was at downtown east chalet, family chalet. and i was really enjoying myself though i only slept at about 4. and it was because we were mugging at mac till four haha. well it was really an experience. i have nva slept so late because of studying. the last time i slept at four was because i was rushing out huan huan ai. lolx. so this time i was doing physics assignment and out of the nine questions, i did seven questions. =) haha. but den after that i went back and kinda disrupted all of their slp because we woke up my eldest aunt. den after that my fone rang because apparently my mum din know that i was back so (i was slping like a log) my phone rang like mad and everyone woke up. and all thanks to andy that it stopped vibrating and stopped my mum from switching on the lights because she might think that i m lost. lolx. yuppx. haha.

to all my uni cousin: jiayou for your exams! =)

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Friday, November 09, 2007
11/09/2007 08:26:00 pm

FINALLY!

true hols. lolx. finally finally it is really the HOLIDAYS!!!

i m going chalet tmr. YAY!!! haha. but den i feel overloaded with hwk. i haben started on physics assignments. i wonder if i have the mood to do. did i mention i bought huan huan ai? haha

ohoh and i just realised that i m damn busy. THIMUN 07 forum is up so i have been looking through. i guess this time lesser and lesser ppl joined or were informed of the forum yet. oh wells, this time THIMUN seem very quiet...i hope it will be as enjoyable as last year's.

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Friday, November 02, 2007
11/02/2007 07:08:00 pm

tgif

today is the last day of the wk. [and jiamin is at my house!!! HAHA] and again, here we are rushing our cmaps, our physics, assignments, and literally every single thing. what is the difference between hols and sch days. =/ well i think at least i get to slp one more hours...lolx. though that does not really count.

i was thinking of changing blogskin...do you think i should? oh wells. i get sick of blogskins quite easily i realised. now it is already 7pm and mummy is not home yet...and i can solve two layers of the rubik's cube. i just dun understand the internet's solution. maybe cuz i m too stupid.

huijin sms-ed me saying that she saw me in the teacher's digest. i m like FREAKING HELL!!! i was like damn shocked lah. i din expect any one to see it. it is about the 3-D er bio lsns. not exactly sth to be like very proud about because this is not a prog that is mine i just participated in it that is all. alright i m obviously talking crap. i m lik damn tired. i left HALF a cmap haha. well does that count? lolx.

going to rush out thimun too. bleah. and tmr it seems as if we aren't going to malaysia already because my dad has work. AAHHHH!!! alright i shall be guai, stay at home and do my zuo wen...my assignments...and all my committments.

hest's LIFE!!! is boring...

i feel like watching huan huan ai but den again...it is sth that you nid to rush out because you won't have the feeling if you keep stopping in between. oh yea did i mention? i finish harry potter bk one haha. i have been reading harry potter bk one - a plan to re-read the whole series before i start on the last bk.

ahhhh....

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