Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
12/27/2005 07:24:00 pm

a rather nice day to go with!!!

today at 7.30am i was in sch for cca, it has been two weeks since cca so i was rather looking forward to this meeting and to see all my el mates. charm was there too, cuz today was the full-dress rehearsal. they gave me cards and i deeply appreciate them. i also gave them their presents from taiwan, and i really hope they like it lor...it is not really very fancyful...but i like all those gifts. i gave charm her wallet and friendship bracelet =) she totally love the bracelet...i was so relieved, now i only hope that jhosy and geri, and the guys will also like theirs also. charm gave me my christmas presents from her also, it was a black earring!!! i totally love them! THANK YOU CHARMAIN£!!! mucakz hahs

it was a rather tiring cca, we were at school from 730 to about 1500 it is very tiring that grace and ariel started looking very pale and i was so worried for them! but after that we went home, we went on the train, and i saw gf standing there at the station with the face of 'hao bu kou yi qi ah' hahs, i only saw gf but charm sae she saw jj oso, hmmm...den we alighted at bouna vista and sat the next train with the guys in the end there was not only gf and jj there were also nj and kc haiz... so and i charm, trying not to be extra, stood at the other side listening to songs while the guys laugh over things...dunno wat things hahs...actually i had already planned with ariel and grace and lengshan and yining that we were going to lot one the long john sliver to eat lunch and charm was actually going. but in the end she din go haiz...all cuz of that stupid gf!!!!!!!!! so i went to long john sliver of lot one and started eating with my el mates and we kinda talk ba...after that we went to take neoprint! my second time taking only =D it was cool lor...hahs thankz ariel for keeping on saying that my hair style rocks when i dun see wat is so nice in it...=) ty really ty and dun mind that i m not going to watch movies with you and veron tmr cuz i noe and understand that best frens nid times alone to talk and normally these times are very little =) so dun sae sorrie and enjoy yourself cya on friday!!!

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Friday, December 23, 2005
12/23/2005 10:48:00 pm

another shopping day!!!

yoz yoz yoz...today i went shopping with my cousin, jeryl and jerlene, and their mother...had a very tiring shopping day...I bought nth, but jeryl bought his shirts and my aunt bought her christmas present to my two little cousins...i was so tired that i slept in the taxi on the way home...
did i tell you that i started on the book lengshan lent me -- chronicles of Narnia the magician's nephew -- it is SSOOOOOOOO nice...juz love the book...
i also played Sims 2 with jerlene's comp, she let me play one ah...after that i went to eat dinner with my father while my mother had her lessons. after dining at clementi, we went to that big big yamaha, to check out the price of my piano lesson. 1 hour 173.00 dollars for both practical and theory. iz that cheap? or izzt still ex? hmmm....i think it is rather cheap lah...they have timing on thursday oso so maybe i m really going there for my piano...i nid comments on the price...really hope i can continue my piano lesson again with a nice and good teacher...hahs

ok i think i gtg anyway i oso have nth to sae...oh yeah i think i m going to change my blogskin agian =)

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Thursday, December 22, 2005
12/22/2005 12:04:00 pm

another day at home!!!

i m juz so happy that my mum bought me the wu chu cai hong the disc...it is so nice the song, if you want some of the songs juz tell me i send over to you ok? =) well...i finish my hol hw liao!!! yay!!! and i finish my juz chi hw!!! yay!!! now i m going to write scripts liao...hmmm...done one halfway...hope the story outline and the characters are alrite...i spent weeks ont he character making and the content making, and the day before yesterday i juz decided on the names with charmaine, great thankz to charm, she helped me thought of two ty charm!!!

well i think that is all...not much is going on at home....

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
12/20/2005 06:34:00 pm

painting day!!!

opps forget to sae in the last entry, after eating we went to buy paint (powder pink) to paint my room =D well so today i started painting after wrapping the christmas presents my mum wanna give one...i had learnt how to make a paper bag!!! ;) den it is down to painting...

the 5L can of paint is so heavy lor...i had quite a hard time bringing it up the stairs...den i pour into the er...'plate' and den i started painting...i painted 1 and a half wall in two hours...den i went down to cook lunch den i went up again after two hours and painted two walls in one hours i was stronger hahs...i left the top of the walls to my father in case i touch the ceil (actually i did a little =P shhh....) it was quite tiring after that one hour and i m here typing after wasting water to wash my hands which were VERY dirty, full of paint.

haiz...very tired...but my room now very nice hehe

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Monday, December 19, 2005
12/19/2005 08:17:00 pm

a day of shopping with mum

firstly i want to apologise to my el mates cuz i din go ice skating with them. yes i oso miss you all so really very sorrie that i din go the next time i meet you all i surely give you all things to 'pei zui' ok?

well den here goes, my shopping day with mum

first we went to raffles to thankz tai sui, den we went to shop for some christmas presents and you noe wat? my mum bought me the wu chu cai hong the soundtrack liao yes! yes! yes!!!! YAHOO!!!
next is to bugis to pray and to gt some wrapping papers
den...sat bus to queensway shopping centre, wanted to gt my rv socks there but that gal sae that they are not in yet so my mum was very very very very...etc. angry and frustrated
forthly, we went to je to register my piano lesson, ok we WANTED to register. when we reached there we were both shocked after realising how ex there were. cuz the practical and theory are separted so these lessons were more ex. the practical grade five is about 126 while the theory was i think 84 so total is 210. dun you think it is ex? very rite? well so i had no choice but to ask gla for her piano teacher's no...really hope i can continue my piano lesson...
next we went back to lot one. there we gt my father's jeans den my mum brought me to cut my hair. yes! i cut my hair liao!!! i actually trim my hair, cut my fringe. well so now i somehow (to me) looks like pei xian well....it is juz that the hair is a little shorter and the face is different hahs...well i seriously hope it will look gd. i cut my fringe for two reasons 1. i dun wan a parking line. the parking line is too obvious liao and very ugly lor. 2. i want to cut my fringe every year end =) making it a habit, hope i will keep to it.
next, my father brought us to eat dinner...yea the cutting of the hair is somehow the last on the shopping list...well wat a day of shopping...=) have a nice day!!!

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Saturday, December 17, 2005
12/17/2005 10:33:00 pm

YAY!!!! I M BACK!!! muackz muackz muackz!!! miss all of you so much...so darn much!!! MUACKZ!!!

well...taiwan...nice place...quite like singapore...many ppl...quite nice place lah...but i still miss singapore...that side very scary lor...every thing is in chi the signs...the menu...the intructions...the things there...EVERYTHING...CHINESE!!! whoa can't believe i stayed there for seven days...a terrible everything-in-chinese place!!! hahs... seven days...it may be long...but once you are there you will think it is so fast lor...to me...i think these seven days...i learnt a lot...terribly much...and these seven days pass very fast...very very very fast...the only thing that i hate about this trip is that...THE ROOM TOILET IS SO COLD!!! hahs...yea it is ok...i was shivering most of the time...ok here is a brief schedule of wat i did in the seven days!!!!!!!!

day one
- plane to taiwan
- reach taiwan
- my luggage crack
- meet tour guide
- thought he was interesting
- in the end decided that it would be beta if he SHUT UP!!!
- slept in the bus to taipei
- went to a shopping mall
- drizzling
- saw the second highest ferris wheel in asia
- things all very ex cannot buy
- mum bought a sport shoe maybe more ex than singapore
- went to shi lin night market
- too mnay things to buy dunno wat to buy
- went to hotel
- gt into a room with jerlene (my cousin)
- mum's room far far away
- bathe
- felt the water still ok; toilet still not that cold
- watch tv
- two very nice show >> (only rmb one leh sorrie) >> e mo zai shen bian >> very nice ;)
- slept at 2 ++ am
- woke up at 2.30am >> kana mosquito bite
- hid from mosquito (on the bed) till 3
- sat on the seat watching jerlene slp
- finally pluke up my courage to ask her to change bed with me (4am)
- at 6 kana woken up

day two
- very tired
- slept immediately after eating breakfast
- everyone make a big fuss of the mosquitoes' bites
- slept all the way in the bus
- arrived at CKS Memorial Hall
- after that went to jiu fen (to buy gifts)
- jiu fen is up on the mountain
- ate lunch there
- love their fishballs (first time)
- at two ++ sat train to hua lian for 4 hours
- slept two hours
- play cards for the other two hours with jeryl, andy and daddy
- reach hualian at 6 and the sky is as dark as the sky in singapore at the timing of 10
- went to another night market and eat dinner
- went to another hotel
- this one oso not bad
- very cold
- this time i brought things to prevent mosquito had a nice sleep

day three
- went to taroko gorge ( where natural stones were and there are in the mountains)
- very nice...but slpt on the bus oso
- went to the factory where jade sculptures are made
- ate lunch there
- sat bus for about six hours to gao xiong
- very tiring
- kana very irritated and frustrated in the bus by the videos the tour guide put cannot slp
- went to night market
- ate dinner there
- gt into ANOTHER hotel =)
- slept till the next night at about 12

day four
- went to the spring and autumn pavilion (a place where there are a tiger and dragon) >> very nice
- the guide sae muz go in thru the dragon's head den come out from the tiger's head
- some auntie selling a magic game >> bought it >> very fun
- went to fu guang shan
- that side is a mountain
- so the slopes very steep
- had quite a fun and hard time pushing my grandpa up and down the slopes
- like the big big big big buddha very much
- gt sth like a qian...tot it was quite true
- it wrote (sth like that) ' dun believe those around you you may not know wat they think' (sth like that lah) i took another one. it wrote (sth like that) ' when time comes you will noe' very real rite...
- sat bus to tai chong
- slept on the way too
- very cold
- went to the fong jia night market
- the biggest night market in taiwan
- very nice; gt many things to buy
- not much time to shop (too bad)
- went to another hotel
- slept till the nxt morn

day 5
- went to tai san leisure farm
- pluke oranges
- tasted them (very nice and juicy) chi new year can buy those oranges from taiwan liao ;)
- ate there at a restaurant
- wet my pants with SOUP (dun think dirty)
- a very cute guy was singing there (nice voice)
- went back to taipei
- went to national palace museum
- inside gt all those historic things
- quite interesting
- went to taiwan 101 (taipei's tallest building)
- went to the mao's shop to shop from royal jelly and ling zhi
- there was a real mao princess there
- they have a very interesting family history
- bought only royal jelly
- went to another hotel
- nid to stay there for two nites
- a very nice room have a small living room
- WATER VERY COLD!!!
- slpt till the next morn

day 6
- went to look at pi chu
- realise taiwan is really into feng shui
- everything is all about feng shui lor
- a very gd place for daddy
- went to pao wen quan (sth like spa lah)
- very nice place
- gt into a room with jerlene and sanyi
- we wore swimsuit to pao (LoL)
- very nice feeling
- hot hot water in a cold cold day the best!!!
- took quite a lot of photos, very nice feeling
- went to a shop where we can barbecue
- very nice to eat
- ate till three (whoa)
- took some pictures
- went to qing reng qiao
- took many funny photos with jerlene's cam (hahs)
- went to a shopping area again lah...dad brought his pi chu and i bought my tao di
- went to eat dinner (at 6 too early)
- not very nice but this is my last meal in taiwan ='(
- went to xi men ting
- that side gt lots of students
- and sells nth that we want
- went back to shi lin night market
- bought voodoo doll for me (=P) not allow to buy more sorrie!!!
- walk and walk and walk none stop; shop and shop and shop none stop haiz...
- went back to hotel in taxi
- change luggage to green colour one quite nice
- too late din bathe den went to bed
- slpt quite well

day seven
- early in the morn wake up
- breakfast suck
- slept in bus
- went to drink green tea
- i dunno cuz i was sleeping in the bus
- after that went to the grand hotel
- it has quite a nice history in it
- all quite gt to do with feng shui
- very nice
- it was last time the palace of the king and queen of taiwan
- took photo
- wanted to taste the cheese cake that the tour guide recommended but sold all finish liao
- went to airport
- took plane back
- me here in front of the comp tring to remember the past few days things (hahs)

yea that is all...wat do you think...a very very busy tour hahs so i sae it is no different from singpaore only the temp and the mountain only =) have quite of a flu now...every now and then nid to run to the toilet to blow my nose hahs...yea...did you enjoy reading them...if you do den you had beta go to taiwan hahs

cya mucakz i love you singapore...

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Saturday, December 10, 2005
12/10/2005 10:08:00 pm

I M GOING TAIWAN!!!

yahoo!!!! and boohooo!!!! i m going taiwan...really dunno if that is a gd news or a bad news...i will miss out so much fun in cca and many movies and many many fun meetings with my el mates...but i will also gt to go out with my cousins...and explore a land that i had nva been before...i will gt to sit on the plane again!!! so it is actually both gd news and bad news... yea i m going taiwan...sorrie seniors i told you that i was not going cuz my mum told me that we are not going but after that they sae that they are going, mainly because the money that they put in is toooooooooooooooooo.............................................. much...heard that juz the three of us cost about $3000+++ very exx....so cannot dun go... =)

yea nid to pack...tmr leaving...the flight is at 8.30am, den 4.30 i nid to wake up...haiz...so now i beta go and slp no i should pack anyway...BYE!!! cya!!!

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Friday, December 09, 2005
12/09/2005 08:28:00 pm

lastest news of my life!!!

hmmmm...it's been long since i come online, monday was here...friday i m back hehe ;) well actually nth much happen this week...

it has been cca, cca, cca, caa, cca, ... lots and lots of cca...i felt kinda scared walking that road to lot 1 liao...on wed night, i totally freak out after readin the wu chu cai hong the ending...told you liao, jian yi in the end is with xiao qian...haiz...poor yoyo...really like jeanette aw...she is pretty...and looks real nice....den gt reallly closer to my cca mates...realise ariel, grace and me...we have lots of similar interest...with them around my hols will nva be bored again...hahs...been long since i gt into a real chat with charm...geri...jhos...jj or gf...kinda miss them...the laughters they brought to me...really hope that we can go back to the days of schooling time...now only hope that schoool will reopen faster...

oh yea...you all muz have know that i m going to taiwan next week, from 11th to the 17th...yea...but i dun think i m going anymore...cuz of some family matters...not now they sae maybe still going...haiz...adults...they juz can't make up their minds...haiz...i juz adjusted my mind set that i was not going overseas this hols den they sae maybe will be going...haiz...make up your mind...but i think i will really be very difficult to decide...well all these are adults things dun really need to care... =)

well that is all...anyway...really learnt a lot from renee...she know a lot of things...we have been doing basic sword work and the minuet dance...too bad charm miss it it was so much fun...haiz...think i gtg...bye!!!

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Monday, December 05, 2005
12/05/2005 08:38:00 pm

a eventful day!!!

hahs...today is really interesting and tiring...yea...very...well here goes!!!

in the morn, 6.30am, a gal named hester lau woke up and prepared to go to school. at 7.35am, she reached her school for tkk. at 7.40am she realised that she forgot to bring her prototype and report!!! aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................and she is meeting her fren at 8.00am...she rushed home to get her stuff. she reaches home at, i think, 8.30am and rushed off to school again! at 9.00am she reaches school, juz in time for the real appointment she and her fren had had with the tkk teacher...after 30 minutes, everything is done, so she goes home. on her way home, she alighted at bukit gombak to take back some clothes that she and her mother had handed to the tailor. she suddenly had the urge to walk home from bukit gombak, so with one hand carrying all the stuffs and the other hand with a cup of grape ice blended, she walked home from bukit gombak! she past by many HDB flats, swiss cottage sec, a petrol station, a driving centre and lastly she past by the 'forest'. den she reached blk 104 (those who noe...it is his house) anyway, she walked, walked, walked...until blk 207 then she stopped hahs that is HER house...she took a total of 1 h to walk home from bukit gombak...ppl think she is crazy, but she thinks it is fun...so is she really crazy? at home, she watched DA CHANG JING..again...den she went to school again for cca. before taking the mrt, when she walk past her pri sch, there was an accident whereby a boy was knocked down by a car on his bicycle. there were many onlookers and she was one of them. the only sentence she heard from the boy was "i m breathless...how?" den her journey to sch, was only filled with this sentence...she was thinking how she would reaction if she was the victim...she was thinking how will she feel if she was the victim...she was thinking of that boy...if he could live on...she was thinking of his future...how miserable they will be...haiz...she was thinking too much...
at 1.45am, she reached her school meeting her el mates there too...in a thunderstorm...she, being a very nice junior, lent her senior her umbralla, so she shared an umbralla with her sec one el mates...there were walking and walking...screaming and screaming (due to the thunder) unTIL........the side gate...that place was flooded!!! the sides were all muddy!!! eekkk...so she and her frens had no choice but to go thru the 'flood'...with her...blue skirt...her socks...her shoes...all wet...wat was worst is that when she was crossing that big 'river', a car came splashing by socking her shirts wet with muds...ekkkkss.....yet she still sae it is fun...wat has gone wrong with her??? she is totally crazy!!!!! anyway...during cca...she din once took off her shoes...so her feet were frozen...haiz...silly her...den she went back home the usual way...

yea i think that is all about this eventful day...hope you have fun listening...;)

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Friday, December 02, 2005
12/02/2005 10:18:00 pm

i have decided!!!

i have decided not to watch wuchucaihong and hurt myself any longer!!! so i m going to wait until the next edition of the [i] zhou gan to see wat is going to happen in wuchucaihong, den i watch...i nid to calm myself first... so I HAVE DECIDED!!!

i have oso decided, to be a scriptwriter...starting with a 10-minutes skit...if i can lah...i will try as hard as possible...give me all the luck...;) to come up with a very nice scenerio ;) will talk about that later...

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and this is specially made to thank HUI JIN, my beloved...hahs anyway i m no lesbian!!! oh yea...huijin...thankyou very much yesterday for helpping to reassure me juz after you noe wat had happened...i realise you understand me the most...look like the 6years and 11months of friendship is very worth...very very worth...you are a very nice and gd fren...if it wasn't you yesterday i dun think i will even be able to slp (well i managed to sleep a few hours) thank you very much...

"Friendship is forever; friends are forever. The only way to keep it is not to give it up, and i am NEVER going to give it up!!!"

this goes to all my fren esp, hui jin, haiwei, siewhwee, charmaine, geraldine and jhosy...love you all so damn much...thankz for being there when i nid you...

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Thursday, December 01, 2005
12/01/2005 10:44:00 pm

I HATE YOU!!! I HATE EVERYONE!!! in wu chu cai hong...esp the back stage ppl!!!

(breathe in)(breath out) dun mind me but i really nid to throw it out...i already let off some to charm (really thanks charm) but there are somemore which i wanna sae...

I HATE THE SCRIPTWRITERs of wu chu cai hong!!!

why???

very easy...cuz of his good script writting skill!!!

I HATE THE STORY WRITER of wu chu cai hong!!!

why???

very easy...cuz of his creativity; cuz of the story outline of wu chu cai hong!!!

I HATE THE ACTORS AND ACTRESSES IN WU CHU CAI HONG!!!

why???

very easy...cuz of how gd they act and how pretty and handsome they are that make me so into the show!!!

why?...whY???...wHY??????...WHY?????????

why muz you let jianyi like xiaoqian????
why muz you let jianyi be so trustworthy that make all mothers to like him???
why muz you make yoyo to be like so bad...naughty...why can't you make her into a kind young nice and really nice lady???

(breathe in)(breathe out) thankz for listening...i dunno if i feel much better or wat...i juz noe that...i want to be as good as the scriptwriter of wuchucaihong in writing scripts...i want to be as good as the storywriter of wuchucaihong in writing stories...i want to let ppl go under this type of pressure...this type of interest into a show...i want to...ane i will be working towards that...well tata...bye...

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