Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

♥ PROFILE

hest borned on 07.04.xxxx, crazily in love with maths and dogs. is labelled nerdy and hardworking need of frens =D totally treasure them.

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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
5/29/2007 08:58:00 pm

i tot i was special till i met you guys...
you ppl are really... 0.0

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, May 25, 2007
5/25/2007 09:47:00 pm

so glad

WOOTSS!!! I M NOT IN SC!!! how glad can i get lolx. do you know that when karen announced the ppl who will be and i was not on the list i was half-jumping away (because i realised that i was in the public so should control XD) anyway yea. i was super super happy lah HAHA. =D

and today is the last day of school!!! i mean well we have a break during june. well i dun really know if i m really looking forard to this or not...i mean i m like SUPER busy. with LOTS of HWK AND PROJECTS! omg. and not forgetting my various committements. just pray hard that i dun drop right away. must perserve on hester!!!!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!

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Thursday, May 24, 2007
5/24/2007 08:35:00 pm

izzt?

the feeling of being used is so strong.
the feeling of being the extra person is so strong.

will i ever know?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, May 22, 2007
5/22/2007 09:06:00 pm

finally

finally sc speech is over. drama is over. next up will be rmun and xiao you miao. jiayou jiayou hester xing de!!! =)

AMBER IS SO CUTE!!!

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Sunday, May 20, 2007
5/20/2007 10:30:00 pm

cip

omg i din noe i sounded so damn depressing in the last post. >< anyway. yea that was just a period of emo part. today was fun cuz i gt to slp till 10+++ hehe. its been like a month since i slp till the sun is really high up hanging on the sky.

had cip today. and although this cip really seriously just popped out of no where but still i really love it leh. i have always seen volunteers doing house visits, giving out provisions and all that to elderly in the one room flat and had always thought that was cool. and today i actually did the same thing!!! i think this is super meaningful you know. omg. i think the elderly they are so poor thing...so lonely but actually the ppl there are nice and their place is really kinda crowded. if you dunno anyone and always stay at home it would really be lonely but if you like always mix around with others and dun always stay at home it wouldn't be so lonely to live there. anyway i din go to the rest of the units like the rest i only started at level four of blk 52 and there was this malay old man. lolx. we were asking him if he know how to speak eng and he replied no. lolx he really replied no. so is this eng or malay HAHA well in the end he sae he really dunno how to speak english and so we kinda spoke to him in malay cum hand signs haha it was really very funny lor we were moving our hands and all that and xueqiang lolx it was realy funny. but there was this other female who was living with someone that we were finding and den she told us that he passed away not more than three weeks ago. >< omg lah it was so sad. it is really a sad case. and she was stay with this man cuz when his wife passed away, she told her to move in and take care of this man cuz she also know that he is very ill. haiz. this old lady is really poor thing. lolx and well they all know how to listen to dialects and speak dialect so i m like...haiz. although i m a hainanese i dunno how to speak hainanese. although my mum is a teochew i only know how to listen to teochew and dunno how to speak it at all. bleah. i m a failure.

anyway after that we went to tiong market to eat. i tell you ah the hainanese chicken rice is really really really very nice XD lolx. and den after that went to tiong cc and started our rehearsal. well i m BB haha. lolx it was fun. just reached home from it. XP hope it will turn out fine.

jiayou ppl it will be all fine and nice. i hope

live like hester.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, May 19, 2007
5/19/2007 09:38:00 pm

i screwed up

i screwed up my life
i ruined my entire life
i destroyed it.
and im planning to just lie there...and...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Sunday, May 13, 2007
5/13/2007 07:10:00 pm

hundred and eighty degree change.

>< it is not even a week since exams ended and we got back our papers and seriously life now is so much more relaxing when you know that the next day is just a normal day without any papers that you have to be so tense up for. well...results...aren't wat i expected...it was worst. but i shall not comment here...

anyway. yesterday was fun. we were baking cookies! =) and i have the photos with me. shall upload them here =)
well...er...later. lolx.

anyway yea den later met my rmun allies HAHA well they are very nice. =) hope we will be able to be very good frens and seriously i feel more comfortable with locals as compared to last year. this feeling was totally different. though i m no longer tha youngest there cuz everyone else is as 'young' well but still i hope they will be able to 'take care' of me. haha cuz..well seriously i m noob at this and i wonder how i m gonna pass the presentation >< let's just pray hard that nth goes...er...wrong? haiz.

den after that went to hayden's birthday party haha not exactly a party lah just a gathering and it was really heartwarming... =) i miss my cousins...my aunts and uncles...just love the time when we can get around and it feels so good that even teasing feels ok... =) i love my family. can't live without them.

den today spend the whole day at je trying to give out surveys. well having a school that is good and kinda famous is good cuz den you will meet seniors and they will help you =) well we managed to finish all and cosolidated =) let's just finish this thing fast and get done and over with it ok?

den after that went to west mall to celebrate mummy's day !!! haha. =) just love the weekends.

okies here are the photos.



haha i guess this is grace's retarded hand.


this is our first batch of cookies. we made three batches.


this should be the second batch. EWWWW...so many hands ;D


geri the home-econ queen at work on the second batch =)


cookies baking in the oven...delicious =)


zuzu the 'radio' haha her playings are really very nice. and grace -.-


haha. si4 da4 mei2 nu3 =)

yea that is all though we took lots of pics but er sorrie ppl dun have the time to put them all up here. if you want er tell me i send it to you personally ok?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, May 10, 2007
5/10/2007 07:29:00 pm

我是创新王！！！

lolx today skipped school. went to mediacorp lolx acted out the skit done in the last 24 hours. met many artistes. cheng zhi cai was our spokesperson. we din win. but well...it was very fun...it was really new exposure...the media...the complicated...interesting...and so fake....media. everything is arranged but still i like the media. it is like a body system...well where there is division of labour. lolx. at least we have 200 =) and took photots and I M ON TV!!! well i m going to be on tv haha. oh well life still goes on after exams. and i m gonna be SUPER busy =/

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, May 08, 2007
5/08/2007 05:39:00 pm

finally

exams are O.V.E.R.!!! =) YAY!!!! =) lolx next up will be the following committments and also getting back the results time. =/ not really well...sth which i m really looking forward for but still...exams are OVER!!!

just well...pray hard that i will do well...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, May 04, 2007
5/04/2007 02:41:00 pm

EXAMS!!!

its been so long since i blogged. i can't even rmb when was the last time i blogged. -.- anyway. eight papers, three more papers to go and five done. haiz. today's physics was i dunno...expected i mean i expected it to be so tough...to hard...so unpredictable...so well cannot do finish that kind but still i cried...i crried after the paper...well actually also a few tears before the paper...cuz i have already expected myself not to be able to finish that was also why at the last thirty min i was able to finish up section b and do section c until the last two questions...well the last second question...i did finish i wrote the tension but i dunno if that is the answer...or maybe i did it wrongly...but if that one den the rest all wrong den i will be failing this paper already...and the main thing is i dun even know if i do it correctly anot...><><>< at least i noe chem...my mcq gt one question wrong because i dun really know carbon monoxide gt how many shared electrons. =/ haiz. really realy very worry. and my history is like totally flunk already...totally crap...i din even think about wat i was writing lor!!! now...can only well look forward to bio ss and den after MATHS!!!

today went to eat lunch with 3a de. lolx. very funny...miss 2b...well also gt too much infor (don't wanna enclose these TOO MUCH infor. lolx) ariel not in school since wed...miss her...haiz. XX blah. feell dead.

live like hester...
determination

expressing the emptiness inside me..