Total Eclipse of the Heart;

~~Friday, August 31, 2007~~

8/31/2007 09:11:00 pm

teachers day

this year's teachers' day is really enjoyable.VERY enjoyable i should say. i finally got to see huijin (after like a million years). i got very close to weiling ;) lolx. miss her too...and den ther ewas yinting, yili, yenteng (too bad germain has sore eye...) and den still got the guys who are forever growing...>< and den...hmmm...JUNE. haha. sumyin...and hmmm...6A ppl. HAIWEI!!! wanying. siew (finally she came back with me) and veron. haha. yuppx. =D miss all of you. i distributed all my gifts! lolx. and esp to huijin whose birthday is on the 29th. haiman was back too and he sae faheem is back in sin. i dunno how true this is but still...it is good to see haiman. =)

we took lots of photos.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, August 27, 2007~~

8/27/2007 10:00:00 pm

hey all! XD

i woke up with a smile. and seriously the day turned out ok! =) and in fact an enjoyable one. i started the day with the witch child and i ended the sch day with charm sitting next to me blowing into the tissue paper. (not that it is a good thing but stil it is better than some days.) and best of all just now i went to eat hor fun, as i finished reading witch child (its been really long since im like so crazy over a bk. i think i will go and read socrecess) anyway, and den went i came home, i ate yue bin, den after that JUST NOW, my dad brought back THREE BIG FAT DURIANS!!! WOOTS!!! haha but den now my stomach is like bloated and there is pt tmr. =/ oh wells. hope that the day wil be good tmr. =) and that physics will turn out fine in fact...oh wells. just blogging. and yay! it is teachers' day on fri, which mean half day, which mean i can go back to pri sch oh YIPPEEE!!! ~ haha

ohwellsbacktoreality.

=/ report card is coming back, hols are coming which means exams are approaching.

pressure pressure pressure

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, August 24, 2007~~

8/24/2007 11:44:00 pm

broke down. finally.

yes. finally i broke down. i can't stand it any longer. i cried in front of my mother...in the middle of a food court. after talking to charm, i realised how pathetic i was. so i can't stand it. i think if i din cry out, one day, my hair will all turn white...cuz i would have thought too much throughout my years. i somehow found out that (after talking to mummy) that most of my worries are not worries at all. like she and my dad's relationship. oh wells. adults matters, xiao hai zhi bu yao guan. =) oh wells. i guess i do feel better now...

today was sc investiture. looking at them taking photos and all that i somehow think that this patch of leaders that rv have is really able to bring rv to a greater height. i m not sure...mayb there are really some of them who are really unhappy, but den i think overall, this year's investiture is really a successful one. cuz i guess everyone really interacted. but den i still think that there should not be a gap between the different committee. hope that pres and vp will do sth aboutt this prob. looking at them. i smiled.

yupx the smiling theory again. today as i sat in the el studio, not talking, just sitting in the middle of 'no where' and just watched them and really grace had the essence of being a bimbo. lolx. i do learn my lsns well jere. haha. oh wells. teachers' day is coming. hols are coming. exams are coming.

*breathe in**breathe out*

and i shall do my best. and overcome this difficult time of mine. it is already the end of the year hester, you can do it and you MUST! jiayoux. must really jiayoux.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, August 21, 2007~~

8/21/2007 09:55:00 pm

it is tue.

lolx. ok i noe i m lame. what is wrong with tue? well today we had cid lecture...the last lecture...choy was as usual degressing...life is usual. just feel lik blogging. oh yea in english lsn, law gave us this article: Smile! Brings up the quality of life. and i told zy to remind me to blog about smiling =) well, in the past when i was very very very young i used to smile at strangers...cuz i will be like very shy and dunno what else to do and since smiling takes up lesser muscles than frowning, i smiled at them. lol. well maybe i should like start smiling at others again =)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, August 19, 2007~~

8/19/2007 12:14:00 am

agamemnon

lolx =) we watched this play today. it is a classic greek tragdy. quite abstract. also only understood the last part. oh wells, at least this is much easier to understand than othello. hmmm...kinda felt disgusted at the fact that the general which is agamemnon killed his own daughter just to win a war. and that woman...well there was a twist at the end with a female who is supposed to be a male yet is wearing high heels. =/ oh wells, i saw it and den i was thinking, is he a female or male? sat between a stranger and grace. lolx. quite alright ba.

went home rather late after eating at coffee club. i spent like $10.50 on the SANDWICH. can you believe it, $10 over for what? A SANDWICH. but den this sandwich is the size of half an a4 so well i was damn full...and i was sitting between grace and josephine who were sharing a drink. =/ so out of place. lolx.

supposed to feel happy...

yet...alone i went again...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, August 18, 2007~~

8/18/2007 12:45:00 am

881

ok after watching the show i finally understood why izzt called 881, cuz in chi it means pa-pa-ya. yea. lolx to think i din think of that...well the director...the scriptwriters...i must sae this is a very good movie cuz of the depth. dun think that it is really just plain jokes about the 'getai' it is actually sth more...well it also talked about the unstoppable fate...that plays tricks on us. and well it goes in a cycle and it repeats itself. that it is so scary...the effects were good though some were kinda childish. but still i think qi yi wu's role...well i dunno it is kinda a waste that he is given that role cuz it is like he GOT NO LINES AT ALL!!! but den well it is also a good time for him to show is emotions...which he showed a little. oh wells. but den YANYAN is in there!!! =D she was my teacher...until she had to act this movie and den she kinda stop teaching us. lolx she was really a very good actress...really made me drop a few tears. oh wells. hehe recommendable. +D must go watch.

hmmm...today was...oh wells. i dunno i think i wasted a lot of time and den it is like tmr is like so damn packed. i really wanna do revision but i can't bring myself to do them. wth. =/ haiz. must study study study only got a month to exam. MUS STUDY!!!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, August 14, 2007~~

8/14/2007 08:06:00 pm

haiz. physics.

got back my physics yesterday. i failed by one and a half mark. yes i failed. haiz. i noe that everyone is failing it and all that but den the paper...when i took it back to do i could do. nervous breakdown again? i dunno i just hope that i really can do it. careless errors and all that...it is really really haiz. discouraging...i feel so damn no confidence now. sad and really...haiz.

maybe i nid the spirit in the stone. [read zhiying's blog.]
oh wells. yea.

den today got back my chi. three marks away from failing. >< haiz. i hate it when my grades are so low. =/=/=/ bio i think i screwed it. cca i dunno how i went pass it.

today was a long day...

you frowned when you said "Hi."

you smiled when you said "Bye."

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, August 09, 2007~~

8/09/2007 03:52:00 pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! <3

oh man. do you know that yesterday there was this super super big fat cockroach in my room. i was like about to slp and den there it was! it flew pass my leg, and went to the curtains. then realise that it can't stand on the curtain, so went to the back of my radio. i mean seirously >< it was freaky!!! and WORST OF ALL!!! it went into my bed. AHHHH!!!!! so i ended up spending the night in my parents room lolx.

oh wells. today is national day. SINGAPORE IS 42!!! <3 just love it. =)

finally, after much hesitation...i cleared my table. so it is like now super tidy. i threw away many many things, packed many man things so now it is neat and clean. feel so good now. =)

ahhh...looking forward to tmr, and finish the bio project and also do cid. =)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, August 08, 2007~~

8/08/2007 04:20:00 pm

sports day =)

this year's national day though it is not like before, where we had concerts, this year, we had our sports day!!! =) it is really really fun, maybe cuz i ran (though we were last...) but really really very glad. as we said the pledge, we sang the song, we sang the national anthem, it was really touching...singapore made it to 42 years. and we are doing well. we made it! =) den gryphon did very well, we tie with centaur at the third position, and we clinched back our cheering champion!!! XD so so so damn glad! ahhh...it is really a pity to miss it.

den after that went to (of all places) west mall. but still the food there is EX. and well i left like a buck in my wallet now only >< but well it was meaningful and fruitful time with charm, jiamin, shermian, huishan. love all of ya! =)

haiz. but haiwei fell...hope that her injuries aren't that bad. really worry about her...i wonder how is she...i hope she is all right. To haiwei: dun think so much gal, stop crying. i will always lend my shoulder to you if you nid it. it is just a friendly match. dun be too upset. take care of yourself. i will always be very worry for you. ><

anyway...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! <3

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, August 07, 2007~~

8/07/2007 10:25:00 pm

numb

when you sae you dislike the sch, i wonder if you sing the sch song.
when you sae you are not proud to be a singaporean, i wonder if you sing the national anthem.
does it make a difference to singing the song or not? to me, yes. to others, it might be no.

suddenly feel so lonely...away from the world...apart from so many things. feeling helpless and totally...'am i alive?'
this numbness...maybe rep the start of my mood swing...but i hate this loneliness...i want to talk it out...but who? mummy jus came back from work...daddy won't understand...he is off to bed...no one online is suitable for me to talk to...everyone is busy...
at first i wanted to sae...just sae it out..there is no where else except this place.

lonliness...
alone...
here...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, August 05, 2007~~

8/05/2007 10:18:00 am

it is all over.

yesterday gong gong has turned to ashes. it is all over. let's hope that he will protect us from where he is now...always and for ever...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, August 02, 2007~~

8/02/2007 11:07:00 pm

235th post!

lolx. my last post was 234th. such a nice number. i really used this blog for close to three years already....been so long. anyway. i just had a close to virus-attacked-whole-com experience. thanks to leslie chua. he sent that stupid thing den i open den gt virus and so i had to like remove msn and den download it all over again. been very very very tired today. want to thank gugu for driving me back. haiz.

today chi test was a failure, physics was had an enlightenment start, debates was very nice cuz jere was very nice. lolx. finally gt my swimming sliver badges. just realised that for jg's we only lacked half a point to get to semi finals, duzzen that sux. bleah. ><><>< haiz. and i din bring home chem notes so cannot study chem prac. though there is nth to study about. maths rox. my shoulder aches. last lsn with tok today. so many things happened. just in a few hours of twelve. life...is so unpredictable. yea it is...it really is...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, August 01, 2007~~

8/01/2007 11:27:00 pm

death.

hmm...my grandpa passed away yesterday at 9.02am....

and i so think that i m going to fail physics. oh pls...let me pass...

expressing the emptiness inside me..