Total Eclipse of the Heart;

~~Friday, April 27, 2007~~

4/27/2007 07:52:00 pm

syf

yes. we got a bronze. we are not afraid to be proud of it, cuz it is true that we really grew from it. the unitedness it has brought us. the friendships that have been 'repaired' and strengthened from it. we have benefited. it is not about the title given to us. it is how we have benefited from it. we dun have to prove to anyone, just nid to improve. improve our skills, our scriptwriting skills, our voicing out skills, our backstage crew skills. our skills.

ip assessment or rather mid years are here and they brough alone mr tension and ms nervous. it is really scary...nights sleepless just because of the thought of the papers. we are not done with our assignments, we still haben gone through them...we are still well in much doubt of things. mon is my english and history. i really really realy am very scare about history. i dun really have the mood to study european history now...i am well much in love with the pacific theatre...because i feel that it is closer to us. well closer to me...i have been to pearl harbour and almost shed tears because of the number of casualties there had been...but after learning about the story inside after doing on the attack of pearl harbour...i kinda stop blaming the japs and well think that the americans were too fulll of themselves that they ignored the warnings and signals...now hitler is sth so common to me that it really makes no effect anymore...while jap occupation has more impact on me...

i dunno...just know that i nid to go and study now.

study study study.

DETERMINATION

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, April 25, 2007~~

4/25/2007 06:00:00 pm

life

i wonder how many posts i have named it as life. yea this is life. life is cruel. life is there...it is just unknown to us. and we have to take the ups and downs. wat are we supposed to do. studies. cca. friends. family. my life just revolved around them. it is raining again...i wonder if it is cuz the sky is crying for us...human beings...pathetic human beings we base our life on what the sky decide for us. it is all fated i guess. well i believe. is there anything we can do about it? i realy wonder...but utimately there should be a end product right. damn i dun even noe what i m talking about...just find this world superficial. just...dun want to think about it. can i? yea can. just well...bear with it...the worst will be gone i guess...

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~~Friday, April 20, 2007~~

4/20/2007 11:28:00 pm

debates finals!

man, acs barker din win, xinming sec won instead. well we were all like expecting the best speaker to be acs barker's third speaker den well it was xinming's third speaker. and it was such a close well debates. =/ well at least acs barker can still get into a div. well have a chance of going to a div. as for the c div, bowen won nan hua kinda surprising lah cuz bowen well to us had a very messy case. and they were the opp...well opp is seriously more difficult. still these two were very good debates and well i did enjoy it. the motion for c div was: THBT fast food companies should pay compansation for damaging people's healt. den the motion for b div was: THW condemn the influence of music industry of today's youths. stil congrats to all teams. and ESP to DOROTHY!!! lolx. she was in the top twenty best speaker =) so proud of her =)=)=)

drama syf results was supposed to be out today =/ but den they din announce anything about it. haiz. we are all going nuts about it. why can't they like tell us...so that we can stop guessing and making ourselves worry. esp when exams are like so close already...they are literally killing us. >< today when the pa system suddenly sounded at about 1pm++ we three (ariel, grace and me) jumped, well actually i was shivering...i din jumped but still it scared us so much lah...but it was sth about the geog pupils must meet a the library or sth. damn it lah. why can't they let us know early. =/ =/ =/

this weekend we have FOUR assignments and the due date for ALL of them is on MONDAY!!! this coming monday. they are really thinking of killing us lor. how do we have the time to revise like that >< nid to mug mug mug. ><><><><

life is tough, but i will determine. DETERMINATION!!!

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~~Tuesday, April 17, 2007~~

4/17/2007 05:54:00 pm

IC

omg i went to make my ic and this means that i m old. shuts. i keep on have this feeling that making ic means that i m old. well m i? nvm i m just well a mature child =) i mean evveryone still treat me as a child right? lolx

haiz. i miss today's el lunch out at vivo and i also miss the free ben and jerry ice-cream >< booo...haiz. well wat can i do, ic is definitely more impt.

today zy went for syf chior so well i m alone in class...well i m a very good fren lor. i help her record everything down and well i dun think she has to worry too much right zy? lolx =)

dance's syf also today. JIAYOU!!!!

yesterday had rmun first meeting with the rest of them. well now that i m in the HUMAN RIGHTS COUNCIL. lolx. i m like lolx HUMAN RIGHTS!!! well we are representing isreal, have i said that? lolx. anyway yea. and i just realised that isreal...the jew country (oh yea i just finish night and damn i was really frightened by it in thunderstorm and the author mention isreal saying that it is the place where they all place their hopes on. well jewish country among the muslims.) still yea. er...isreal is good frens with US. which means RI cuz they are representing US. and well the other middle east country, iraq and blah blah blah well bad term. which means...hmmm..i will be on bad terms with bpgs? lolx. well i dunno i just hope that this time round it will be as fun as thimun.

anyway so looking forward to tmr going out with charm to buy hp pouch. did i mention that cuz yesterday i was almost late for sch (YES!!! i woke up at 7!!! was sweating cold sweats...so scared that i will be late) and den i spoiled my hp pouch. well the zip came of. can't close. so now i m using this BRIGHT RED colour pouch that is not meant for hp and at the side there is er...levi logo? lolx. well it is literally a POUCH. not like those nicely fancy hp pouch but a normal pouch which is rather big. well i should sae very big.

well still nid to do hwk le lolx. exams are coming. i m dying. my days are numbered. lolx. jkl jkl well but still thank god that i m not born in the mid 1900s. and also thank god that i wasn't late yesterday =) thank you

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~~Saturday, April 14, 2007~~

4/14/2007 04:03:00 pm

night

i have been reading night, when there was a big thunderstome outside and well with lightning and thunder, i was really really really shocked and stunned. how can th germans be so cruel, how can they be so violent. they will have retribution.
well i really really want to thank god that i m not borned in that period of time. it was really scary, creepy and so damn inhumane. are they even human?

night is really a very good book though i have not finish it yet. it is strongly recommended lolx.

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~~Friday, April 13, 2007~~

4/13/2007 11:12:00 pm

band got gold

=) congrats band, you gt gold. though it was not with an honour, but still, must feel proud of yourselves, because you all have done your best and it is a gold, and not a silver or bronze. well i cried along with them, though i think only zy, ariel and grace plus zuzu saw. well we were having our recess, and den mrs chak and all the band members gathered there to receive the news. mrs chak said that, no matter wat you all get, cheer, cheer as loud as possible, because this is wat you get and be proud of it. i think when she was saying this, she was really very brave. and well i really look up to her, since sec1. what she said was so true. cheer, cheer as loudly as possible, because this is wat you get, this is wat they get. and yes, the band did cheer very loudly, too loudly in that sense to feel their sadness of only getting a gold. the band spirit is really very good. i really look up to band =) JIAYOUX!!!

well...today during cca, had post-modem. is that how you spell it? anyways. you want to sae what we can improve on, i think well it is the backstage crew, really nid more physical exercise. and den also, the props, we should continue to reduce the amt of props on our stage, so that we do not nid a lot of backstage crew. performers, the acting skills still can improve though it was nice as the tension was build up properly. we can also improve our script. our coordinations between the actors and the backstage crew, between lighting and backstage crew, between lighting and actors. i think that team spirit is really really very impt in a production.

to answer the question on if we can get gold or not. well what i can sae is that, seriously no comment, because it is really all base on the judges, their objective points of view.

now all we can do is to pray for the best.

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~~Thursday, April 12, 2007~~

4/12/2007 09:29:00 pm

happy birthday cheryl!!!

=) finally my twin sister's birthday ;) lolx. awwww...gal you are fifteen must take care of yourself and stop making me worry =) lolx.

hmmm...today in the bus super high. yesterday was syf din go back to class den today miss the class a lot esp zy zuzu and chloe lolx.

i was super high today lor. including ariel who kinda went crazy. we all miss cca. well at least now is less than 24 hours towards cca =) haiz. really really hope that everyday gt cca haha. lolx. ok anyway still gt lots of hwk to do cya around lolx

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~~Wednesday, April 11, 2007~~

4/11/2007 06:58:00 pm

IT IS OVER!!!

gosh izzt it fast? yesterday i was just worrying wat will happened, how will we do and all that den today, everything is over in just that half an hour, we are done with our performance, one which we took six mths to prepare. and now really it is over.

firstly i want to congratulate all the cast members. =) you all really do very well. your best performance, i noe about that.cuz your energy was superb i look at you all act i feel that rush in me too. =) nice one. nice build up =)

but den the backstage crew. really really disappointing...firstly charlene was caught in the light on the stage. den after that the cups dropped. den after that lots of things happeend!!! and omg...i really realy relaly hope that the judges dun really penalise on this kinda things. do you know wat i m scare of i m scare that we might lose that one or two marks that prevent us from getting gold and den won't that be super wasted?

ms ek, mr chua, mrs yeow, mdm chia, mrs kan were all here to watch us. well feel honoured. i hope we really did well. ms ek sae that our transitions were good...well i really dunno about that. are our transitions good? well with such a noisy and well slow backstage crew are our transitions really good?

there are really lots and lots of questions. and all these can only be answered when the results come out which is after the 19th. after the last day of drama syf is over. i feel that it is unfair lor, why does drama have to wait until everyone is over than they sat the medal that we get? why doesn't other performing arts does the same? i mean it is seriously more pressurised.

we stayed and watched. and sprintfield one was super good. many of us were crying after that. den st andrew one was also very good. it was a story from the bible. well i dunno just have to wait and see and see the results. i hope we will make it. i want us to make it.

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~~Tuesday, April 10, 2007~~

4/10/2007 09:53:00 pm

it is just tmr.

i dunno the feeling on stage, but i definitely know the feeling backstage. it is nervous, it is scarying, and it is driving me crazy.

i dunno the feeling of peparation because i was busy with debates, but i do noe the feeling of waiting for the day to come. and the day is tmr.

i really hope el will be able to get wat we have always wanted --- gold.

i dun deny the fact that i lost the passion for el before. it wasn't in sec 1 or 2 but it was this year, during debates. well it wasn't about drama and team spirit in debates, it was more of a knowledge, language prob. it was your personal problem that no one else can help you. it was so different. it was so different that it killed my passion for el. but now, seeing the things on stage, seeing how hard every single one of the main cast and the crew has put in, my passion is back again.

i rmb that time, when we were sec one. syf was totally like a stranger to me. i just know that wat i needed to do at that time was not to disturb the seniors and that they are really putting in a lot of a effort. go to watch syf, and cheer them on. and that is wat i did. they performed. and we tot that they were good. well to us, they were good. but den when the results came back, they were crying. it was disheartening. esp when...even though they cried, they still tried to hide it from us, did not want us to worry, and from their face we can already see the red swollen eyes. i will never forget that scene. from then on i rmb everyone of us was certain (well at least in my level) that our ultimate aim is to achieve a gold during syf. this is not only our goal but it is also a goal and expectation that our seniors expect from us. every year, after the seniors left, in their notes, there will always be syf. and it was always the same one, syf must do your best, etc.

it has always been our goal and finally tmr is the day. the day that we have waited for for two years to present ourselves in front of the judges, to the school that we do deserve their good treatment.

if you ask me if i love el, the answer will be yes. if you ask me if i ever regretted entering el, the answer will be no. and these are from the bottom of my heart. el was always this motivation, the place for relaxation, the place where yea...i found frens that really understand me. the place were i laughed and really the only place where i can do whatever i really want to do and that is to let go of myself.

we just have to do our best, everyone focus and be serious, have enough warm-up, work together and that is all we needed. we have been doing it for months, working hard at it for months, just for tmr. that twenty mins. WE MUST DO IT!

JIAYOU EL!!!

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~~Monday, April 09, 2007~~

4/09/2007 09:15:00 pm

MUMMY!!!

=/ my mum is still on the flight to uk. =/ since this morn nine. she has to sit the plane for at least 16 hours. i wonder how she is now. i will defintely miss her. she is gone for A WEEK!!! =/ this is her third time flying off alone but to me, this is well stil the first time...well i did cry just...not in front of her. she wants me to work hard. and i will! mummy i will work hard for your sake. you are my lovely mummy...

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~~Sunday, April 08, 2007~~

4/08/2007 01:12:00 pm

MY BIRTHDAY!!!

lolx i din come and blog yesterday but well had a fantastic birthday really thank you ppl =)

thank you huijin you are so nice and sweet to bring it all the way to my void deck =) ahhh i miss you too!!! booo... how i wish the hols can come soon so that we can go out. haiz. examS!!! =/

yesterday was out whole day. in the morn after waking up lolx i went to school for el. and started painting boxes. it was FUN. lolx. den i was really really high and den started taking photos. it was really really fun these are some of the photos that we took. ariel and grace look really tall in their heels. and they are really really beautiful =) AND BEST OF ALL we got our el tee!!! omg finally after like three years. these are the photos.

ariel, grace and me. they still haben put on their makeup and well i m in el tee!!!

grace and me. she looks really really tall. lolx

grace, ariel and me this is after they had their makeups on.

grace, ariel and me again and this is the retarded us =)

me and grace. if grace was a guy den this would be the perfect photo and me and my boyfren!! lolx. aawwww...i m in love with gracie.

ariel and me. haiz. she is bending so low just for me to feel tall!!! lolx. in this pic i really look like a pri sch kid lolx taking photo with a da mei nu =) well at least the fifteen year old me looks young =)

den after el i went out with my parents to get the cam. i gt nikon coolpix s8. =) it is very beautiful. i love it like hell. bought it at 450 well i dunno if it is an acceptable price or not but i noe that my dad is happy that it is this one. =) well he happy den i also happy lah haha.

yuppx this is my new camera!!! =)

den after that went into a hainanese chicken rice restaurant to eat. lolx well the chilli was superb the rice sux. the chicken soso well still i think it is the cheapest celebration i have in years but it is really really very enjoyable. to be able to eat with my parents =)

den went over to national library board the central lending library. and guess wat i borrowed NIGHT! =) haha lolx yea i actually got it. =) well now i have to choose between this and pride and prejudice. well it is really really nice awww...=)

well happy birthday hester =) lolx. i love my birthdays i love my frens. all of you i love you and i love my parents for giving birth to be on such a special day

THANK YOU!!!

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~~Friday, April 06, 2007~~

4/06/2007 10:33:00 pm

birthday!!!

charm, zuzu, zy, geri, jiamin, grace and ME at pastamania. one person missing--eileen, who is taking photo lolx.

this is my lovely doggie which is my present. =) ty really love it a lot

charm and me =)

retarded gracie pointing to a piglet cuz she looks like one!!! =)

me and eileen

zy and me

reflections of eileen, charm and ME in the toilet. lolx i noe we are lame

my second birthday cake with my relatives =)

mummy and me doing the cake

magical birthdays

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4/06/2007 06:26:00 pm

birthday celebration

this post is delicated to charm, grace, eileen, geri, zy, zuzu, jiamin =) thank you so much for this celebration really really ty. =) i m very very happy thankyou.

well i love the doggie!!! it is SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO CUTE!!! lolx. i love it! lolx.

well today we went to pastamania, charm gt her earhole again. omg i think she is super bravee can? she din cry lor if it was me i would be crying like MAD!!!! =/ anyway. yea den after that we went to shop lolx pmk gt storewide sales geri went crazy. lolx. well pastamania really ty very much also kinda malu lor i mean everyone was looking at us and they were so nice to buy me a cake and cut it and sing birthday song omg i really really really really love birthdays. ty ppl really really love my these group of good frens. i owe you one. =) AAAAHHHHH!!!! i m super super super high now. so happy. i tot i will cry out in joy but well i did not i was just boucing away. hehe. lolx. yea. lolx. i can sae nth except hehe haha lolx.

and charm stop buying me other things seriously this is enough already. =)

thank you...

thank you...

thank you very much!

=)

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~~Thursday, April 05, 2007~~

4/05/2007 08:30:00 pm

5th APRIL!

omg i seriously love april. dunno why maybe cuz it is my birthday month maybe it is cuz of sprint but i love april it is the start of live man. haha

today was fun though ariel was not in school. haiz get well soon ariel. i became so LAME and it is all cuz of grace XP HAHA. she influenced me!!! it is her!!! lolx. ok that is being lame too. yea and den i go all gaga around about global warming. i m so glad that i helped charm in her cid, she really look so stressed up and all that that i totally dunno wat to do. well jiayou charms you can do it de =) you have my help =) hmmm...and den today two teachers din come in so well was kinda playing a fool haha and very very very nice chloe lent me pride and prejudice. =) lolx. did up the naming of our class noticeboard. it really look so US now. OUR CLASSROOM HAVE A NAME!!! and a name that is glowing in the dark izzt that just cool!!! lolx. told you i m super lame today.

so happy that tmr is fri, tmr is good fri and i m going out with charm eileen jhosy geri den after that meeting grace zy zuzu jiamin....hmmm...jiamin nid a nickname calling her full name is sometimes really too well...i dunno she nid a NICKNAME!!! lolx

realised that chi debates is different from english different not all speakers speak even though they have three speakers. i dunno not very sure but find it very interesting =) told you today i was in a good mood i talk a lot you noe. HAHA

and den while sending hwk to ariel, me and grace were really crazy. we were taking our shadows den we went into delifrance ate and waited for ariel. man she is really long. can't stand her XD well. we and grace were really crappy! lolx.

m i going crazy? yes
m i excited about my birthday? yes

well my mum is flying on the 9th. =/ haiz. will miss her lots. will want to call her every single day and will be thinking how she is. it is my syf week lah. and she is not there =/ MUMMY!!! I WANT MY MUMMY!

and even though i have baby-g watch i m not a baby ok. ;)

you see i m getting lame. must be mz influence me one. damn him (once again) lolx dun scold me hor. =) oh wells. i nid to do hwk but dun have the mood to do it leh but still NID TO DO!

jiayou ELDD!! =) jiayou jiayou jiayou. we all can do it de.

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~~Wednesday, April 04, 2007~~

4/04/2007 08:29:00 pm

CO gt GOLD WITH HONOUR!!!

omg really really really happy and glad for co, they gt gold with honour you noe and really looking at them now it is really funny...if they walk in groups you can see all of their faces have huge grins from a ear to another ear and it is like cannot see eyes one...lolx just the teeth haha well really really congrats! =)

now it is more stressful on us...well i dunno...just dun really have that confidence...i hope things will turn out ok... =/

anyway i saw the RMUN thingy and guess wat we are ISRAEL!!! omgomgomg i m like going to so faint. =/ omg i dunno how to continue this on. we are israel and wat do i nid to do now follow all the US news on israel? haiz. big country...i hope we won't mess it up. well for the presentation we can kinda act as osama...lolx.

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~~Sunday, April 01, 2007~~

4/01/2007 10:39:00 pm

april fool's day

it is finally 1st april. well...1st april...it is his birthday. not that anyone know who i m talking about...anyways happy birthday darhling =) will not forgt you de :)

anyway...today i m a super hardworking gal who started doing hwk though i was also slping half the time. ;) anyway. mz came sms calling me oi den saying that renjie fainted while running 2.4km. i was shocked and well i did sense sth fishy ok. well den he ask if want to visit him at the hospital. i was like omg. ok when. den after that he sent HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY! - - i was like totally...haiz. it is already the 21st century and it was a lazy sunday and for goodness sake i was so stupid to think that on sunday someone will be running 2.4 and den will faint and den this person who is not really a fren of his will know and will tell me someone who is not really a fren of his as well = = there are so many loopholes and yet i was like still 'when ah?' - - i feel totally stupid DAMN MZ! you owe me a birthday present cuz you tricked me XP haha

a week to my birthday. birthday has always been a special day to me...+) cuz it is the day that i m borned and i m really pleased that i m borned on the 7th lolx. and it is APRIL!!! the nicest month of the twelve months. lolx. i love april i love spring i love my birthday =)

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