Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

♥ PROFILE

hest borned on 07.04.xxxx, crazily in love with maths and dogs. is labelled nerdy and hardworking need of frens =D totally treasure them.

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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
1/31/2007 09:10:00 pm

last day of the first month of 2007

haiz. it is the last day of the first month of 2007. life has been stressed, busy and totally 'charm-less' lolx. tmr is thursday, can see charmsie le =) (another reminder i m striaght.) lolx.

this first month has been high till the last week...which is this week...when i m really really tired. jg's motion is coming out so...well and the competition is on the ninth if i m not wrong. and i feel so stressed up cuz i noe that my english is poor and my gk is not good at all...guess i really have to read more but...do i have the time? maybe i should use these blogging time to read papers. >< i have no life.

a month since the start of 2007 is gonna pass in 2hours 45mins. and i will be...

miss you 2006

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, January 30, 2007
1/30/2007 04:34:00 pm

home on tue

lolx. today is cca day yet my cca is on wed and fri =) i m in debates =) lolx. still miss drama but still debates is fun too. heard that the sec ones will be joining us on fri. =) really happy yay!!!. hope that my juniors will get in...

been long since i last blogged. but still...=) miss charms. she seems skinnier. but den who will care about skinny right...ppl only care about being fat...skinny is good but too skinny is actually no good. ><

digi media/imaging is FINALLY over!!! woots! no offense. just that one committment down and...two more to go? lolx. well three, including academics.

3a...is fun. but stress...teachers stress us and...i do feel the stress...realise i have been cooping myself up in the study room in front of this comp and doing hwk...comp became my best partner, pen and pencils became part of me. hwk is part of life. >< today just know about the physics assessments and all that...five weeks later we are gonna have our first physics test. >< i think should be the oral assessment. life still goes on when you gt a strict and fierce teacher.

chem is fun. bio is ok. but can't live without reading bio ;) lolx. maths is fun with mr choy. miss mr choy, want him to come back ASAP!!! chi is equally stressful, today just had xiao zuo wen. though xiao but den...still cannot cao cao liao shi. >< english gt test on thursday...how can i enjoy life like that, i still haben watch my girl lor... >< when eileen watched finish in like four days? X/

TMR IS WED!!!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, January 26, 2007
1/26/2007 10:08:00 pm

sotongball

lolx this is wat grace like to call me...
and i find myself more sotong as the days goes by ;D for eg. juz just now, i had bump my thumb on the cupboard and now there is bruise on it...even my thumb is hurt now >< the most unlikely places on your body.

had debates...and found out that jeremiah is actually a nice guy just that he smokes. the one thing in my whole life that i can't stand. =/

well. yuppx busy week also but not as busy. i love 3atomicapples. i think we are caring and really nice to each other and ppl are open. so i love 3atomicapples. but also feeling super stress...and one of the part reason is cuz charms not there...>< but life still goes on...charms i still miss you ><

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, January 22, 2007
1/22/2007 09:01:00 pm

my new laughing buddy

ok laughing is contagious i got to admit that. it is even more contagious when you are actually the one making people laugh lolx. i m now sitting with zhiying. lolx. and she is super funny. and we think almost alike. today, i forgot wat we were doing well anyway...we started saying the same things, doing the same movements and laughing all at the same time. it is really funny and really really super funny, well i can't stop laughing. it is really long since i laugh so much. well thanks zhiying. =)
anyway hwk is still as much better get going =)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, January 19, 2007
1/19/2007 09:38:00 pm

the week ><

this week is a busy week. i never knew that txtbk coud be that heavy! i never teachers could give so many hwk. i never knew that lsm would pass so fast. i never knew that doing hwk should be so difficult. i never knew that notes was so impt. i never knew that life in sec sch can be so difficult.

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i m half dead carrying my books from school to home. i really really wonder how i m gonna grow. i m 156cm and i m 48.8kg which is fat to someone who is so short >< hope that i can grow in that weight. have over 10 hwks. including cid. >< i should better start now or else...I WILL BE DEAD!!!!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, January 12, 2007
1/12/2007 10:01:00 pm

today..

today is the eighth day since school reopen. today is the last day of ask lsns. today is the 51st sch anniversary celebration. today is my first time looking at a mike, or i should sae really using a mike. today is the first day i have been so close to a co performance. today is the first day that i saw my debates coach jeramiah (i hope that is how to spell his name). today is the first day i really did my class cleaning duty. today is the first day that i dun have a real hmk since the start of the year. today is the day that we build the car. today is the day that i din bring my wallet and key.

today...there are so many things happening...that...whoa...busy day!!!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, January 09, 2007
1/09/2007 10:19:00 pm

another life fact that i understand today

this might not be a very new life understanding for me just that..i want to keep it here so that i won't forget.

today was angry with my dad cuz he anyhow put the umbrella at the back of the seat and it was drizzling so i rushed in and my shoe gt stuck at the handle of the umbrella that somehow tore a bit of the sole of my shoe. well...was very mad cuz it is only the fifth day of school and my new school shoe was like...tore? well den my mum told me to cool down and that i should not be angry with a simple reason of he is already doing sth for me (fetching me home) and yet i m angry and scolded him for sth like tearing the sole of my shoe... she told me her story. there was once her younger brother helped her to wash clothes. and you noe in the past, lfe was poor, with little money to buy nice clothes. and just nice my uncle was washing my mum's fave clothes, her best clothes, yet he washed till the colour ran. my mum was so angry that she scolded him very hashly. in the end she was scolded by her grandmother which is my great grand mother. she sae that my uncle was helping her to do sth yet she scolds him. well it is really not much of sense when you just read it like that but once you go back and you think about it...actually he was really helping you and you shouldn't scold him...cuz he was doing you a favour. i understand my mistake le. and if anyone seeing me making this mistake again, pls remind me...sth i really can be like so...so irritated or frustrated that i don't care about anything...well..sorrie to those whom i have offended before. sorrie

anyways. this whole week is busy busy busy. >< today gt to miss cca boo!!!! yuppx miss cca cuz nid to go nanhua. met this very funny gal well she talk a lot and talk very fast and really laugh a lot. lolx. she is very nice but...i din manage to catch her name >< think i have to miss cca on fri again ><

its been five days in class without charms. i still dunno if i can make it anot...i really miss her alot...miss her sitting next to me esp. i really hope she make new frens in her class. but dun forget me hor. =/

ask...TuF everything is getting into my head now and it is like...too overwhelming although i still dunno how to use them in real life...well i think i still nid time to really 'regulate' them around so that i will really understand and really use them usefully.

so glad that sv juniors came to rv and they are also interested in eldds =) so happy. really hope to see them in el in the future i will definitely take care of them =) haiz. no matter wat...still miss 6b that time of really innocent faces and the dun-nid-to-care-so-much life. also miss 0.5b where everyone was really comfortable with everyone and there weren't so much conflicts in the end and that we are really happy around each other...the time when we fought our way through the rough sec1 year when we were stranger to everyone....miss you friends. i really hope that 3atomicapples will be acceptive and united in the end. i hope conflicts could end and we can work towards a common goal which is having a united class.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, January 05, 2007
1/05/2007 08:10:00 pm

i finally understand

"True friends are those who are friends with you because of who you are."
dun worry. nth of that sort is gonna to happen again.



live life the way hester would.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, January 03, 2007
1/03/2007 10:34:00 pm

the first day of school ><

so it is the first day of school and charms is not in my class...gosh i really miss her lor...i miss sitting behind her in assemblies...i miss sitting beside her in class...i miss her quietness if she is quiet...and i miss her voice when she talks...i sound like i m in love with her =/ but still...i still dunno how i m gonna survive the whole of the following year...you dunno how many times i had 'glance' at her class the whole day...hopping to see her...to get it straight i m straight...just that being best frens for two years...and suddenly everything disappear it is painful ><

class:3atomic-apples
form teacher:MR chow (i dunno how to spell ><)

m i dead on the first day? yes. heart dead. just trying to revive it but to no avail...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, January 02, 2007
1/02/2007 05:02:00 pm

the new year!

it is the new year!!!
it is 2007!!!
ok i m going crazy. just gave up watching my girl on youtube. my comp is just slow and slow and slow so i really gave up. will be renting disc the next hols. =)tmr going back to school le...nervous yes...definitely...dunno who i will be the form teacher...how will my classmates be like...i really dunno and i also dunno wat to bring tmr...it is like all questions questions and questions...hope this year there will be no stomachache...

expressing the emptiness inside me..