Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
11/29/2005 04:33:00 pm

change my blogskin!!!

yea...i noe i m crazy...kept on changing blogskin...but...this blogskin is COOL!!! anyway...is this blogskin nice? i think it is except that after i have done everything and m sitting back to admire it...i realise...it is a bit crumpy...yea...too many words...think many would prefer the previous blogskin...but this is nice too =)
i was too bored that was why i changed my blogskin again and again and again...really very sian...been in front of the comp since er...130...now is 440 yea you see...I M BORED!!! ok anyway dunno wat to write liao so bye!!!

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Monday, November 28, 2005
11/28/2005 11:01:00 pm

"My girlfriend became my arch enemy; my arch enemy became my best friend; my best friend became my girlfriend!"

still rmb this quote? i juz love this quote!!!

today i went to causeway point with siew to watch Skyhigh, and Skyhigh simply jus rock the WORLD!!! hahs...dun mind me it is juz that i was really fascinated by the ideas that the story writer would come up with...it is simply juz NICE!!! all the super powers and everything...juz wonderful...how i wish i could be in Skyhigh where i can have super powers...

"IN YOUR DREAMS!!!"

hahs that will be wat my er...other side would say...hahs...i especially like the part of the pacifier thingy...it is juz so cool you will gt to live again...izzt that juz fantastic...you will be able to do things that you can nva do before...you can change things that you regreted...izzt that juz wonderful..hahs...

oh yea did i tell you that i had started to read ANIMAL FARM? yup!!! i started and ended =) fast aren't i? but...charmaine is faster...anyway I HATE PIGS!!! though they are clever...intelligent...noe how to read...write and fight...but i still HATE PIGS because of that bunch of PIGS in the animal farm!!! argh!!! juz hate that Napoleon!!! but i love snowball...i really pity snowball ya noe...i like how orwell writees his stuff and the inspiration and how he did the story with history, as you all noe i LOVE history!!! and i like the way he ended the story, the confusion he had given to the animals...the way he played around with words...nice...really nice...

the thing that i learnt from this story is that human can't change, no matter wat they will always have desires...i think this is so much better than The Pearl...so i recommend ou to read Animal Farm by George Orwell!!!

well gtg wanna read the spakespear that merchant of the venice ;) bye

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Sunday, November 27, 2005
11/27/2005 05:44:00 pm

following up...

as i was saying i was going to do a research on Shylock. din noe that he was a Jews and a moneylender (if you spell it this way) he is not really a villain but he is not really a good person. suddenly gt very interested in shakespear realise that he is really a talent....
Shylock appear in one of spakespear's drama (hahs), The Merchant of Venice. looks really nice but din have the time to read...cuz nid to help my mum in her 'homework' from office.
here is the url where i read the detail of Shylock from, hope to have a great time reading ;)

http://www.cliffsnotes.com/WileyCDA/LitNote/id-76.html

have fun!!!

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11/27/2005 05:00:00 pm

chalet / 50th anniversary

hmmm...it has been er...6 days since i writen an entry well can't really rmb wat happen on each day now so i will juz sae the two biggest event the chalet (i din really stay) and the 50th anniversary selection of the cast.

i will first talk about the selection of the cast lah...well...i reali REGRET going to Taiwan...haiz...because of this trip, i can't get into the cast. this trip last from 11/12 to 17/12 and that means it is a week which means i will miss FOUR!!!!! cca omg...i reali dunno how i will go thru those days....boohoohoo...if i din go to taiwan i will be in the role of Shylock, the merchant of Venice (izzt like that spell?). i wonder hu he is...will go and do a reseach on him! ;) anyway the 50th anniversary the cast most of them is we sec ones!!! very proud and happy of my frens...they really are gd in thesse! hope that we will do well in this 50th anniversary thingy so that ppl will change the impression of wat they have on el...el mates!! listen up!!! though we may play a very small part in this anniversary, we muz do our best! so that ppl will look up to el again and wanna join ;) GD LUCK!!!!
P.S. i memorised my lines!!! hehe

next is the chalet...well din stay, i only went there yesterday for one whole day. din noe that my cousin's frens were there too, they are all ex-RVian, one is even my direct senior from el one, but they are x-tremely good poner hahs well it means that they always skip cca one...she sae that if i wanna skip my cca rite, can ask her she can tell me 101 different excues to pone cca, but i din i will need it!! I LOVE ELDDS!!! den we went cycling...as you all noe, after having the scar below my nose i m very scare of cycling down the slope and cycling fast, so i cycled the slowest and my cycling skills aren't that gd so...i was always in the wrong track as them...hehe yea wrong track...so i went thru the MUDDY!!! grasses!!! aiyo...reali muddy lor...my bike was so dirty and my pants and my shirt!!! eek...after that we went swimming...hehe love swimming oso =) the water is SALTY!!! eekk...and the baby pool was worst!!! eeekkk...cuz my younger cousins, heyden and hazel was there so we played with them in the baby pool...eek reali eekk...it was so dirty to think that they are still inside playing like hell...haiz...after come out of the pool...we (Jeryl, Andy and me) din bathe, we juz wore our swimsuits inside den after that went to start the fire...very cool...i mean wearing your swimsuit throughout the whole chalet...really nice....=)
but not really everything is cool...cuz heyden was so hyper at night and took an interest in the jumping on the bed...omg i really CAN'T stand him leh...i almost shouted at him...i really dun understand why his parents were like ignoring wat he was doing, they juz dun care!!! argh...really dislike him...he was jumping and jumping when so many other ppl were like telling him it is dangerous dun he understand? he is already FOUR, dun he juz understand...i suddenly gt a urge to make him fall so that he can understand that jumping on the bed is so dangerous, haiz...was tolerating him...i really admire the two guys (Jeryl and Andy) how they can stand him and continue playing with him...they are as tired as i was...they still can tolerate Heyden...really admire their tolerence and PATIENCE, which i seriously dun have...haiz...

well that is all i think...in the six days my life have been all around these two events...cya

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Monday, November 21, 2005
11/21/2005 11:17:00 pm

'ello everyones...

bin' long since i vas 'ere! Vell...then let's start wit' thruday (17/11)...

17/11

borin' day ya know...whole day at 'ome...vas vatchin' da chang jing again! den lunch cooked spaggatti! tink i ate MANY uncook mushrooms...i m still not that good at cooking sauces ya noe...anyvay....dinner i oso nid to settle it for them (parents). Cooked spaggatti again!!! this time with a nicer and more cook mushrooms!

18/11

bin lookin' forward to tis day...but very disappointing. Thought could get out of ta house at last, din noe that CCA cancelled...haiz...that day vatched 'The Legend of Zorro', den started with all the new discs lah...a day past like that oso...

19/11

uh-Ah! this is a SATURDAY!!! on sat it vas a ver' busy day! hmm...early in the morn vent to mum's office to help her er...sell her printer cartridges (izzt like that spell?) den at 12, vent to shopping at TAKA...after that ve vent SWIMMING!!! at last in the vaters again!!! the vaters vere hot...ok...not exactly HOT buy warm and i DUN like it =) but still continued to improve on my frog style and started revising my freestyle, it is TOUGH!!! veryyy...after that vas very very very very very...etc. tired...but still vent for dinner and home for DA CHANG JING hahs...my vhole family vas vatching it again!!! hehe =P that vas my SATURDAY!!!

20/11

hmmm...sunday...this is yesterday!!! hahs...anyvay...er...voke up late...vent for lunch and breakfast together...den vent to ah-ma's house...visit them for a vhile...den to tuition (to see AYESHA ={ ) after that came home...continue reading HarryPotter and the Goblet of Fire, determined to read finish it before vatching the movie. and of cuz not forgeting our DA CHANG JING!!! till er...12++ hehe!!!

and at last back to 21/11 very eventful day!!!

early in the morn vas voken up by TWO nosiy alarmclocks!!! haiz...can't stand it i only set on but it turned out to be TWO anyvay...was dragged out of my by the noisy alarmclocks, dressed and went to sch....CCA DAY!!! tot today will have auditions...in the end din have...Grace sae she have a feeling today is not going to be a nice day...but i was looking in the positive manner and was telling her may not be...but indeed i was wrong...very wrong...
Yen told us that...she was being transferred to another department in her office so...she is not going to be our coach anymore...boohoohoo...will miss her...she is a gd teacher...anyvay...er...oh yea and the script has some prob cuz...Ms Ek dun like our script and our idea i think...so we aren't going to have auditions...and den the script nid to be changed...and den i dun think we are going to do skit anymore...sad...very sad...i heard we nid to wear a costume...er...those type victorian time that type of costume i think...haiz...sad...den we were to play drama games...i was deeply disturbed by the news...so din do as well as i should have done...sad...haiz...very regret...not a very nice cca day...
next...i was to buy the hp tickets for both my mum and me. i went up to the top floor of lot one...shock as i was...there was a long, long, long, long, long, long, long, ... etc. quene at the ticket stand and do you nioe sth, my wallet have no more than 16 dollars...SICK!!! i dun even noe the price of the tickets and have i haben taken my lunch and my breakfast was juz a cup of milo...in the MRT i was already thinking wat i should eat cuz i was very very very very very... etc. hungry and now i realise i have no money...should have bought the tickets first before eating...i went to eat first and tot that the tickets will cost 650 each which will add up to 13 so i ate 250 (two pathetic slices of roti prata) which will leave me with 1350 dollars. nva did i expect that each ticket cost 7 dollars which will add up to 14 dollars but i only have 1350 dollars...haiz...was feeling so damn it that time lor...luckily...reali reali reali luckily...at that time hui jin was there...and her fren wanted to buy tickets but the quene was so long so i allow them to be infront of me hehe=P anyway...after that huijin went off den i realise i was short of money so i ask from her fren. i was reali reali reali very happy that she agreed to lent it to me cuz i think she knows that we meeting up again is reali very very very difficult...so...haiz...in this world there are still so many gd ppl...hahs...reali reali reali muz thankz her...before that oso saw weling...she is pretty...hahs anyway...after that when i was reali feeling that i was very bad and was feeling very grateful for that gal i met haiman...man he grew hahs...i think about my height already ba...nice guy...
oh yea and about hp...quite disappointing...i was looking forward to seeing so many things that have been descriped in the book...like the Blast-Ended Skewt, the upside down in the maze...dobby, winky, the kitchen of Hogwarts, the unicorns...and many many many more...but they skip all of this!!! ALL!!! there wasn't even mr bagman that minister!!! haiz...very disappointing...
well it is very late now...gotta run hope you enjoyed reading this entry cuz i think it is the longest hahs!!! bye!!!

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
11/16/2005 01:14:00 pm

finally understand the meaning of boredom!!!

hehe!!! i change my blogskin again!!! well...hehe too bored lah...yesterday reali dunno wat to do lor...juz walk in the house...den gt NTH to do...NTH that interest me...haiz...well hope you like my new blogskin...think i beta continue on my hw lah...haiz...BORING!!! aaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005
11/15/2005 12:43:00 pm

many gd news!!!! muackz!!!

firstly...MY MUM IS HOME!!! yahoo!!!! so happy!!! at last dun nid to be home alone with my dad...secondly...I WATCHED FINISH DA CHANG JING!!!! hahs...very happy that in the end, chang jing and that min zheng hao that guy lah, marry and have a gurl, she is more curious to life than her mum...hahs reali like the ending...they reali looks like a very very very happy family...i juz realise that not all the discs have four episodes in it...you see ah...11 of the discs have 4 episodes, 7 of them have 3 episodes den the last disc have 2 only...so total have...44+21+2 = 67 episodes ba...if this mathfreak din count wrongly...=D
thirdly...er...wat is thirdly ah...wait i think first...oh yea!!! i finish my jian bao...hehe that is not reali a gd news lah but den hor...still a nice news...hahs sorrie too happy...fouthly...my mum realise that all my clothes look like auntie wear one...so she decided to change my wardrope of clothes...we started with two clothes...acutally i dun see any different in the clothes lah...but since she want to buy me new clothes i have not reason not to accept!!! hahs...actually...i have lots one...but yesterday...i was watching tv with this comp on...so my father very angry and off the switch you noe...i was so angry with him lor...now still very angry arghh...juz dun like him...opps...secret ah...hehe
yesterday the el meeting...ok lah...i m glad that yen managed to find a role for all of us...but...i still think that we are very extra lor...though i noe that she want to make it as if like there were many ppl...but i still think that we are very extra lah...i appreciate her...but reali lor...maybe a few will do lah...not everyone...
ok i m back to hw...BYE!!! muackz!!! thankz for reading

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Saturday, November 12, 2005
11/12/2005 10:56:00 am

eLdDs best meeting ever!!!

yea well...yesterday i went for the el meeting to us sec ones we tot that yesterday's meeting was the best one ever...cuz there was a new coach, her name is Yan(dunno if spell correctly anot). well anyway, she was very nice. first, we played a game so that she can kinda regconize us and er...know us...i think so anyway...we nid to sit in a circle and the first person (which is stephine) nid to tell Yan her name and wat she likes. then den second person will also do the same the only difference is that the second person have to repeat wat the first person sae. you should have an idea how this game goes ba...so i reali reali reali pei fu the last person you noe...she had to sae all of their names and wat they like. i was kinda at the bad so i had a very hard time!!!

anyway after that, we were separted into groups of five. i was grouped with grace, josephine, jerrine and jesslyn. we were given a script and was asked to act accordingly. i find the script rather nice esp the part where there was this gurl hu was so damn sensitive to horoscope hahs...and jess acted as her and was a big hit!!! jess is reali cool. you see...in this short skit, i played as Pete, a guy who was collecting fund for the staving fund in the cold. then his fren, Marty came along...and den he bet with Pete for $50 that no one is going to give him in concerned for those staving. he asked many ppl to donate...and Pete special quote was "Donate to the staving fund. Please donate gernerously to save life." Among all the people who he asked to donate, there was this gurl (acted by jesslyn). she came in and den was like freaking out saying sth like her horoscope sae that she is able to wash away her sins through donating. and she was freaking out so damn funny lah. she started saying out all her sins and den pouring her notes and coins, in the end she dumped her whole wallet into the tin. well and she asked if i needed the cards. i at that time i was also freaking out already! hahs...well it is fun. Yan told us to act a little more to support the theme which is "many reasons why ppl donate". we tot of many reasons - mummy's gurl (Mummy says) , a gurl who wanted change, a gurl who wanted Pete's no. (that was funny ok, i was reali into the role liao) yea that is all but it is funny, terribly funny.

Then we watched many others acted out oso but i think jesslyn did the best! then it was the selection of the roles cuz we nid to act out on mon i think...jesslyn was selected of cuz...den grace was to be the Marty...gd for her reali happy for her...den jerrine was to be the little gurl hu donated cuz "my mummy says", she is the mummy's gurl hahs... my role as Pete was taken by Joshua.

This time this meeting is really nice...fun...and i learnt alot from Yan...she sae that script is juz a part of the roles' life...before the script there muz be sth happening...and i think she make perfect sense...and the starting scene should show perfectly where the characters are, who are acting who...she reali make perfect sense...she is a gd teacher...=)

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Thursday, November 10, 2005
11/10/2005 05:45:00 pm

sorie sorrie sorrie

sorrie sorrie sorrie so long din make an entry...was busy watching Da Chang Jing hehe ;) well...dunno why i will be attracted to this korean series...but it is reali nice lor...i watch till disc 12 liao going to 13...total there are 19 discs gt 6 more to go before i reali concentrate on my hw.
pretty disappointed with the now the el com...two meetings once at tue the other one is today both postponed to tmr...dunno why but it surely have caused us (el members) many trouble. today though without cca i still nid to go to sch for that TKK but den cuz that is 9 in the morn and ended at 11, and the supposed cca starts at 1, i waited leh...i could have jolly well gone home to rest..no one told me that there were no cca...well most of the sec one members do not know well...actually i can sae ALL...later when i asked melody, she sae already told level rep, this is than i realised that our level rep, ariel, had gone to genting...haiz...well den this one can't blame them lah...but then the one on tue one...haiz...i was at jurong mrt station when i received the sms by ariel...i had no choice but to go home...haiz...i heard from other sec ones that they were worst on these two days...they went to sch then to realise that there wasn't any cca...both times you noe...haiz...
but actually this time this postponed of cca actually have an adventage...it allows me to noe that there is actually a senior hu have the same idea as me that is that being alone at home or being an only child is a bad thing!!! yahoo!!!! at last...at last...AT LAST!!!!!!! haiz...actually being the only child is the WORST!!!! thing...you will be VERY lonely...haiz...well...yesterday mummy went to er...bangkok that means thailand already...at home only have dad...which is a bad thing...haiz...dun wanna sae liao...haiz...miss my mum liao...

lonely hols...

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Monday, November 07, 2005
11/07/2005 04:12:00 pm

sick at home ALL day!!!

today have been all the blowing...drinking...sneezing...coughing and struggling in mathvilla!!! =) can you believe it???!!! I FINISH MY MATH!!! yay!!! very happy but i used HALF of my folscape lor...very scary...half leh...to be exact, it is 14 pieces...getting on to engvilla. oh yea...new way to save paper...by writting your working on tissue paper heheh very useful leh...but the bad point is that you can only use pencil...but nvm lah it is still very useful cuz i thnk i did too much math liao i overturn the whole house and still can't find any paper and as a flu patient, there will definitely be a box of tissue in front of me...so i kinda of out of frustration...hehe...looks like it isn't too bad to be sick you gt to find new ideas for paper hehe
haiz...this hols is going to be boring...i think...but i reali hope not...watching the korean series Da Chang Jing...it is reali nice lor...chang jing...she is a very determined lady...beautiful...very confident in wat she do...my role model hahs...everyday sleeping at 2 juz for her...hahs...well gtg bye...hehe

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Friday, November 04, 2005
11/04/2005 06:18:00 pm

my second post =)

Chalet

i dunno if chalet is a success anot, but i kinda enjoyed it lah...
The best part for me is the barbecue on the first day night...i think that is reali a success!
It was the first time i tried to light a fire alone (at first). The past few years i was always accompanied by Jeryl...he was the one who taught me how to light it! =) ty!!! though i failed...we still managed to have a fire all thankz to 1birazze's boys! thankz to them we managed to have a fire...come to think of it, they were quite experienced. through the lighting of the fire i was able to see the unity of the class i was reali touched. next is the real barbecue...
The barbecue, we were even more united. Do you know that that was the first time i saw so many hands above the pit! hahas...well...we were concerned if each other have eaten and all that...that was so united...
All these are in the first night, that night after barbecue, the gals washed the floor. they are reali gd. =) very proud to be their classmates. hehe =P they washed till so cleaned lor...have a motherly figure...hahas don't go nagging into my ears ah...hehe =P
At night... all of us din reali sleep well...some of them din even sleep...i was kinda worry, cuz to me SLEEP IS VERY IMPT!!! haiz...dun understand how the guys managed not to slp and den after that still can play PS2 the whole day somemore...they are really pro...
The whole chalet was kinda boring lah...i can't find my dream beach in Singapore...boohoohoo...was feeling really sad lor...can't believe that Singapore's sea is SO dirty...i think we should go there for CIP...so that we can clean the beach and have a nice and beautiful beach back so that mother earth will oso be happy!!! =) the sand of Singapore's beach is really big and rough and not the type of fine sand that i expected and which is in my dream beach...haiz...kinda disappointed lah...but nvm...i had a great fun being with frens =P
Felt reali sorrie to 1birazze for the small, squeezy and boring chalet...me as the welfare com head din reali organize any activities...reali sorrie...and i din book more chalets...oso very sorrie...but sincerely hope that you all had fun...
1 BIRAZZE FOREVA =)

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11/04/2005 06:10:00 pm

this is my first blog for myself and this is my first entry...will add more entries in the future...just wait and see =)

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