heylox.
lolx. i love this blogskin. haha. it feels so true. oh wells.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEILIN!!! <3 hope you have a very very very happy birthday. =D
this week had been very very hectic. cried twice already. once is today, and seriously i dunno what got over me, i just started crying and crying. it hink it is the pressure and the stress and seriously i dunno what to do with it leh. what m i supposed to do? ><><>< i just just have to accept it and just continue i guess...
today in el we had the auditions. and well, i volunteered to be the backstage crew leader. and i hope that i will be able to be. and den we celebrated weilin's birthday. oh man really really really happy. the cake was very nice, we took spastic photos.
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
7/22/2007 05:05:00 pm
back from obs
i just realised that i dun like this blogskin. =.= i will definitely get it changed when i have the time...if i have the time.
oh well been back for the second day le yet it is only then that i am typing here, going to list out everything that i did. i dunno i have been like avoiding blogging...oh well maybe the blogskin plays a part.
obs was....fun, interesting, and yes, i have learnt many things there, so many life skills that i dun think i will ever forgt...maybe i will forgt who taught me...how i experienced it...but generally i dun think i will forgt...i will rmb it for life.
i want to thank zippy, my instructor. i really really really miss her a lot. she personalised all the stories and make it sound so meaningful and really...i learn better with stories. i also want to thank my team -- battuta. if we were ever a team again, i hope we can cooperate like before and really work hard together. we are a special watch.
i can feel that my mindset had changed. i dunno how it has changed but i do know now that i see everything with an inner eye...with a happy eye...with a positive attitude...i hope it will last. and i do want it to last. Yes, obs do make a difference.
so you may ask, what did we do there that well changed me so much. i dun deny that it is tough, it is tiring, it is very dirty, but from all this you will get to experience lsns that you will not learn in school, life skills that does not come so easily to you...
we kayaked. we walked. we slept in tents. we cooked our own food. we moved as a watched. we slept without brushing our teeth. we slept without bathing. we slept in a place where there wasn't any light or water. we went back to basic. we carried on responsibility that was not easy. we worked as a team. that is why...obs is memorable. =D
appreciation...sth that i have learnt deeply here. i learnt moral knowledge...and seriously it is learning through experience. i dunno what to sae now...just feel that everyone should experience that at least once in a life time...experience the hardship and so we will get to appreciate the sunshine we have.
quoted from zippy (and reminded by eileen): 'We don't get what we want, we get what we get.' on the first day, zippy told us that our five days in obs can be as bad as hell, and it can also be as enjoyable as heaven. it is all up to us, up to us how we look at it, how we see it. i m very proud to sae that i have enjoyed myself, and i did not live in misery for the five days. i tried every activity and will continue to face every single challenges in life head on. lolx. well not exactly head on, but i will try my best. and perserve on.
now i m tanner, and more positive and well i dun have the study mood. which is BAD. oh wells. i nid to blend both type of life together and i want to do it well.
zippy rox. battuta forever. obs unforgettable. =)
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
7/15/2007 05:12:00 pm
obs
tmr is obs. i feel sick. i will be off connection for like...FIVE DAYS!
feel like closing this blog. cuz i realised i hate this blogskin oh well...but looking back...there are so many memories here...heng bu she de...
my probs are insignificant. yes i know that...they are just overwhelming...
today, read through infor of lky...read one of the interviews he had with CNN...he sae that being popular is not the way for leadership...one must gain respect to do will...lead well...and thinking back...i totally agree...without respect...one can do nuts. popularity does not bring you far. like him...everyone respects him...right? well at least i know that i do...XX
thankyou yingying for being there =)
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Monday, July 09, 2007
7/09/2007 08:35:00 pm
i feel sick
haiz. really dunno what is wrong with me my whole body feel very very warm...like i m having a fever yet i m not having a fever. haiz. but den today still very happy. had shermian accompanying me, den chloe...though i fell but still =) and den zy and den most of all CHARM!!! i went home with her!! XD feel so glad. though the bus was really horrible but still...lolx. think i saw shihui today though not sure if it was really her...i kinda avoided her look...i dunno why i think i m avoiding her...esp when i m carrying like a mountain of books...it is realy really embarrassing. and den after that saw renjie. he was so nice to wait for me after alighting from the bus =) ty lolx. he was let off like at 230 and den us leh...haiz. 330 leh. it is like an hour difference and den left sch like half and hour later and den travelling at least an hour. omg...seriously my time is wasted just like that. and den now...damn it. my dad din noe how to plan his time and den he reached home late, cook late, and i m damn pissed so intend to wait for my mum to come back den eat den haiz...now still waiting....HAIZ!!!
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Friday, July 06, 2007
7/06/2007 10:12:00 pm
new life
=) lives without the both of you are seirously tough...i had to control myself. maybe it is beacuse of my this following habit...this habit of treating you all as my good frens that it was so tough...that i minded so much...yea but den this week i saw the others. i talked to them...they are nice...they are really nice. they listened to me...they ask for my opinions they are really caring for me. and i feel happy. thank you frens. =) thank you charm for making my tue and thurs so happy...so happy esp when you were talking about the heart beat thingy lolx. it has been so long since i laugh and cry all at the same time...but the memory of that wonderful time...really make me smile...even the thought of it...makes me grinning widely. it was really as though the two of us were in class only...the two of us in the whole wide world and the rest of them are asleep, frozen in time...and so only the two of us know what is going on and we heard the 'monster' HAHAH. thank you zy, jiamin and shermian for making my time in class so enjoyable.=) thank you for your companionship. thankyou juniors, kasey, carissa, queenie, cheryl, kelly for making el so wonderful not forgetting weilin, eileen and jess. X) thank you. nevertheless not forgetting my wonderful sms/msn fren - zhaoguo. =) really thankyou. and of cuz of cuz my parents/siblings. for listening to my trouble again and again and again. lolx...i must be really really really irritating. oh man...just imagine...=D well...yupppx
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Monday, July 02, 2007
7/02/2007 08:19:00 pm
i dunno what to sae. just it is over. and...maybe...this is god's wishes...i will never appear in your life again...dun worry
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Sunday, July 01, 2007
7/01/2007 08:27:00 pm
haiz. i finally understand how it feels
suddenly hit me that mr rendy lee is leaving...two days ago, his last day, met him outside the teachers' room. and den he ruffled my hair...that time really had no idea that he was leaving...haiz. after knowing...it was too late...he left already...he is like one of the nicest teacher i ever met...still rmb i think during sec two or izzt sec one that time we had mid year or end of year paper either one...den my english summary was marked by him. at that time i did not have the habit of writing my name on every single paper that i used so i did not write my name on the summary paper. and den he wrote my BIG BIG BIG name on the piece of paper writing: MS HESTER you forgot your name!!! it was super funny...i think that is the first paper i got a reply from the maker. haha. but den he was nice enough to like not penalise me. and yea still rmb the other time he was took over the drama lsns cuz he cannot stand us late and not doing anything and all that and he gave us our very first drama lsn. though my seniors complained and den he was transferred to ncc. but i think that that was my first drama lsn in rv. and really thank to him cuz he put in quite a lot of effort for that...haiz. mr lee i really will miss you de
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