Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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hest borned on 07.04.xxxx, crazily in love with maths and dogs. is labelled nerdy and hardworking need of frens =D totally treasure them.

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Friday, June 29, 2007
6/29/2007 09:44:00 pm

el

=) really really love el. for the past few days it had been emo emo emo sad sad sad day. but today during el i really feel happy...with the juniors. they are damn cute...really really really feel very happy with them around...love you juniors! <3 you really made my day. too bad can't go out to eat with grace, ariel, yijin, etc. but well there will be another time (i hope...) oh well. haha. kasey was super pervertic. carissa was super cute. kelly was really loud and funny haha. queenie was being an irritant lol is that word too strong? well irritant in a cute way...cheryl was really too soft to be true. lolx. they are really cute...haha. grace too. lolx for such a long time i really haben had such good laugh. =) thankyou el...for being there...X)

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Thursday, June 28, 2007
6/28/2007 10:17:00 pm

the feeling of left out is stronger than ever...

m i being too sensitive?
but m i being treated as a fren?
i m seriously afraid of you...that i dun dare to speak.
i feel like a little child again...both childish and cowardy...
but i m really like that?

searching for the true me...

live like hester

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Wednesday, June 27, 2007
6/27/2007 09:51:00 pm

emo day

haiz. today the whole day had been emo day. i really dunno what happened...so feel so down that in school din sae more than twenty words i think...rarely been so quiet...well looking forward to tmr...can see charm in the morn and den after tat gt syf opening preview to watch...lolx. oh well =) gd day ahead ba. but oh man...tmr gt the san guo yan yi de test. hope it is not too hard...seriously with so many names and all that i doubt i can rmb anything >< oh well life is like that. i kinda like resigned myself to fate...oh wells. it is so depressing...

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Tuesday, June 26, 2007
6/26/2007 10:09:00 pm

second day of school

well this second day seems really long...the long hours of lsns...the cid lsn itself already feels very long esp when choy showed my ivle account. damn embarrassed i m. >< bleah. the longest cid lecture i ever had. den lsn lsn lsn and the final chi lsn which made it feels like fri. >< haiz. i kinda ruin my english presentation. XX haiz. spent so long on it and it was ruin...just like that. den cca. met the new teacher. she seems nice =) lolx. feel emo...lolx guess it is cuz of period. haha. girls life...haiz...wanna do maths. maths can cure emo periods. but nid to read rape of nanking >< haiz. oh well second day of school how m i suppose to pass tmr. but tmr is short...i hope...oh wells.

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Monday, June 25, 2007
6/25/2007 06:13:00 pm

first day of school!!! =)

today is the first day of school. man i miss my school mates =) i miss charm. miss grace. miss ariel. miss zhiying. miss chloe. miss jiamin...miss so many ppl!!! lolz. went to school with my new hair cut. it really make my face so BIG!!!! boooo...lolx. saw the new el teacher already. lolx she really look rather cute. lolx. haha. well let's hope that she is a nice teacher to work with. gt lots of hwk already. first day and my head aches like hell...cannot concentrate...it was 9am-3.30pm straight haiz. and i only ate a piece of bread. my determined plan to jian fei! lolx.well but i came home and started eating lao po bing...lolx. well not helping...haha. oh well nid to do hwk ><

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Friday, June 22, 2007
6/22/2007 06:10:00 pm

haiz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACIE!!!

for a few days i have been going in and out of ntu bleah. now know the place rather well already lolx well i hope...haha

so many days with daddy...realise he is really actually just a man with a thinking of a boy though he do have the knowledge but like what mummy say he haben grow up yet...oh wells...

do i always follow the aunties? well yesterday heard veron said that to me felt rather sad...heartbroken...whatever you call that...i duno...not that i want to but den when i m with you all...i feel neglected...with my parents i feel better...and well my parents go to places nicer and better den where all of you go...take for example in disneyland...you guys like to take the rollercoaster and all that kinda thriller...but den i prefer going to the 3d animation...to take photos with the characters...you see the diff? the last day following you all...i kinda regret cuz i could have shopped at a nicer and cheaper place...but still i m glad i bought the chip and dale dairy...it is the different thinking ba...tmr is derek's birthday celebration and well i m realy wondering if i should buy him sth...as a cousin yea...but seriously i m not close to him at all lah...how to buy...you ask me to buy for jeryl i will also be hesitating...i dunno what to buy but i guess...i will just have to buy it...veron so long din see you already now you look exactly like my debate coach just more cool lolx. you look so different that well...i din recognize you at all...izzt really cuz i m always be the aunties. AAAHHH!!! it is really killing me lah. haiz. life...

a few more days to school reopen...i can sae that i finish all my hwk already left the chem assignment...this hol had been...rather long actually...though i feel that the year went passed very quickly. lots of things happened. i went overseas twice...there was rmun...den el handover...and den hwk...projects...and so much more...family matters and all that...i feels so damn long and fast...well long maybe cuz i really learn a lot this hols and fast cuz...i feel that 1/1/07 is like yesterday...half a year is gone...three more months to exams. it is so fast...3a has been a class for half a year already...yet i m stll missing charm...lolx. i still dun feel that bond in 3a...life...

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
6/19/2007 09:40:00 pm

Back!

=) finally back from hongkong. back to singapore. slept for five hours and forty five mins den went for cca. Ahhh...i miss the seniors >< now i m the debates coordinator. quite weird. good thing that grace is pres and ariel is vice. just as they like it =) ahhh....today super tired. we spent six hours straight clearning the el studio. cl better dun mess it up or else i will hate them forever. now it is really sparking clean =) ahhh...a sense of achievement. gt some photos. haha. but den super lazy to blog up here now. bought lots of things from hk esp my she disc =) super super super happy ahhh...this month feels like a year. so many things happened...experienced so many things just dun want sch to reopen...

life...

today kana lots of mosquito bites >< now my leg is like super swollen due to thoes bites. hate mosquitoes. bleah.

ppl who wanna know the details of our mass cleaning pls go to http://rvhseldds.blogspot.com/
XD

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Monday, June 11, 2007
6/11/2007 09:29:00 pm

i was on tv! =/

lolx. it is super embarrassing. and ppl just keep calling in. bleah. yea i was on tv. and stop asking you have your answer!!! X/

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6/11/2007 05:54:00 pm

NRP

today is my first time meeting my prof at ntu. and i m sae that he is really really really crazy about stones, shells and seriously omg. crazy. i think i m beginning to agree with ah long gor gor that men when they grow old they will start to like sth and for my dad it is his fish and for this prof it is his abalones. lolx. i fine it really amusing...lolx.

too bad chenglu today is in USA. well i was with the big SEM >< well the microscope was really nice and all that...but to tell you the truth the only nice part of this project is the shells everything else is really really boring... =/ oh well i will just get this thing over and done with.

today is totally me alone. and no one else. during lunch i was roaming the campus, every inch >< and den when i sit down the friendly mosquitoes just so nice and wanna accompany me and accidentally stuck their butt into my meat! >< wth. yea i kana so many mosquito bites and i dun even noe if they are dengue mosquitoes anot. i did saw the white spots on their butt...haiz. and wat is EVEN better was that i only brought $1. you know the canteen food is like super cheap...$2 for a bowl of noodle the amount that they sell outside and den wat $1...no matter how cheap i can't eat anything proper so i resorted to two cha shao bao. =/ haiz. my lunch.

missed el...bleah.

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Saturday, June 09, 2007
6/09/2007 12:59:00 am

japan trip

i m home. at last. actually home yesterday afternoon...just no mood to come here to write...tired maybe...missed home...pity my mummy nid to be alone for five whole days...regret not buying much too...oh well let's go hk to spend! still gt lots of hwk to do...really thank you mr choy for helping me with my work. also haiz. think i miss so much within my committee...they actually went out yesterday >< and it was so funny XP bleah. i missed them...actually also nid to thank them for helping me finish my survey =) nice ppl...very nice...

jap trip was fun yet depressing...if you think it is untrue den go try to sit in front of the war survival and the minamata patient and listen to them...their stories are sad...it is really really very torturous for them...i really wonder why is heaven so cruel to them...are they innocent or are they like the mastermind? who is at blame...these questions have been encircling me for so many many many days...five full days of humanities really really really somehow like enlightened me and let me think even deeper than ever...lolx is this a good thing or a bad thing? only god knows.

life still goes on...after you know sth bad happened...nth will change


-*when you're gone the pieces in me misses you`

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Friday, June 01, 2007
6/01/2007 03:37:00 pm

RMUN

lolx RMUN IS FUN!!! this one i can't deny. the ppl there are nice. and seriously i love them. i m missing them already. >< gonna miss d&d and fashion parade because of tonight's flight. bleah >< but still...love the frens that i made there...i think three days is too short. we should have more days, so we can properly debate and pass resolutions. but still...yuppx took some pics =)


mingting and me =)(sierra leone and israel)



wanping and me =) (panama and israel)



me and deborah =) (israel and switzerland)


lots of ppl =) gary, fatimah, wanping, lintong, mingting, david, fabian, me, francis, edmund (serbia, UAE, panama, china, sierra leone, hungary, france, israel, timor leste, rwanda) yuppx =) nice nice nice ppl <3


this is sarah and fatimah (quatar and UAE) lolx they are cute =)


ok this is practically half of the hrc. can you spot me? LOL i m not so small size should be able to lah =)

yuppx. really wonder when i will meet them again. =/

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anyways wed's xue yi xin sheng. i almost cried. well you can sae that as them being successful...well successful...yea...it was nice...kinda understand why they gt gold already...because of their good use of props? and well it was realy funny and touching and really inspiring... well at fisrt when i first heard them performing...it was weird...well i think this all leads up to the fact that i haben been listening to chi for the past few days. lolx. rmun is the cause <3

lolx


yea flying off to jap already. will miss my mummy XX

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