Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

♥ PROFILE

hest borned on 07.04.xxxx, crazily in love with maths and dogs. is labelled nerdy and hardworking need of frens =D totally treasure them.

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Thursday, June 29, 2006
6/29/2006 09:12:00 pm

Wither's Legacy by John Passarella

just finish reading this novel, called the wither's legacy. spent a week reading it and i totally freak out (as i m a coward...) as i read it. it is about this er. twenty-years-old lady, yuppx she has magical powers. this is the third book in the series, and i only read this book, but it is enough to creep you out already. this 'witch' is called wendy ward. before the real witch died, she planted a curse in wendy's brain, to lure a wendigo out to kill wendy. yuppx this is the main thing the story is about, but in it there are many magical things like a 2 years old looking and thinking like a 6 years old, or a shape-shifter who is only a about 6 years old gal. yuppx very interesting. i love it. but it totally freaked me out when i m reading it at night lor. lolx. the description is very good.

i recommend it to everyone =) very nice!

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Wednesday, June 28, 2006
6/28/2006 06:25:00 pm

绿光森林 Green Forest, My Home

woot! just finish this show =) on youtube! youtube rockz! lolx. yuppx this is a very very very nice show that is shown in channel u, from wed to fri at 7pm. i love this show cuz this is the show that i cried the most! lolx. i cry not cuz it was very sad...yet it was tears of joy...the happiness the couple had...the touching scene...and mostly those scenes happened in the green forest. this is indeed a very touching story, though there are very little episodes, this show covered relationships, friendships and lastly kinship. very touching, i really recommend all to watch. you can't just watch one episode or else you won't understand wat they are talking about, you have to watch from the start to the end, and you will be crying like mad like me...tears just drop, yet they are touched tears...=)

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!!

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Monday, June 26, 2006
6/26/2006 08:29:00 pm

lolx first day of school

=) it is the first day of school in the new campus of malan road and i have already enjoyed life here climbing stairs. it is so good to be once again back in the classroom studying! lolx i miss my frens, ALL of them. it has been really a month since i last saw them . awww... =)

i purposely ran up and down the stairs from the canteen to my classroom twice, skip lunch and recess to jianfei, but just now i just ate durian...yummy! but...all the efforts i put in to skip my meals went down the drain! boohoohoo...

yuppx today charm had a fever as the school is ending, so i accompanied her home on the bus that goes directly to her 'hill'. and after she alighted...that is when i realise that...I DIN NOE WHICH BUS STOP TO ALIGHT! omg omg omg...i was so scared and really freak out totally...luckily in front of me there is this super nice guy well...an rv-ian, npcc, charm's cca mate. yuppx i was so desperate that i ask him for help...i ended up at er. the next lrt station after bukit panjang...hehe...yuppx i really really really wanna thank him. he is a good guy...dun really know his name though...hehe...

yuppx first day of school. eventful day. and most importantly! ms yang teaches us history!!!! aaahhhh...scary scary scary. for one term. omg but den er...actualy i ok with her lah. cuz she help me with my history and answer all my questions very thoroughly. very nice of her. =)

=) =) =) love the new campus. love the school. love me =) =) =)

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006
6/21/2006 05:57:00 pm

long time ago

hahs sorrie. it's been long since i have tagged. those quizes are really scary. super scary lolx. anyway i have a notice here.

anyone interested in hamsters? i have six hamsters here to give away. tell me immeditely if you want them =)

yuppx we (my parents and i) have decided to give the hamsters away. well you can dun take all six but take at least two. ok?

been busy with the stained glass and i have finally finished painting it but! i still haben count and the report is undone and the presentation also. omg there are more work to come. and i think my eyes are dying...haiz...due to the stress that i have giveen them sorrie eyes!!!

yesterday we had our el com meeting. the feeling of being in the com is quite good. and i have been to the new school. omg omg omg i love it so much it is so nice and ...i really like it. it feels more like a school where you can study and wat's more! el has its own studio! woots! though we have to share with cl well that is better than none right? lolx i love this school it is big and nice and the classrooms look inviting and the field is so big the whole place is so clean i can't wait for friday so i can really look at every corners of this school!

then de day before yesterday, i went out with el mates. supposingly should be josephine, grace, ariel and jesslyn. but only jose and grace turned up. jess had a high fever and i was totally taken by surprise while ariel had to do her culture and math boohoohoo...so we three went out instead well...lolx still had a great time =)
but den at JEC the food junction we kinda met a lunatic. well we din noe she was a lunatic until the staff there came and told us. me and jose were waiting for grace at the food junction and den we sat at the four people table. den this lady came and sat beside me. she den took up my bottle and ask me if after drinking this drink will she be fair. den she ask how long i have drinked it. den she pulled up her sleeves (she was wearing long sleeves shirt) and said she was very tanned and den she sae she is american borned and blah blah blah. omg i shock diao but den still din sense anything wrong. she den walked away taking her coffee away too. this is den the staff approached us and ask us wat she said and told us that she is a lunatic. ommg that is so scary!

oh yea did i sae that i finish xiyouji? lolx yuppx i finally finish it.
i miss e mo zai shen bian. i lent it to peixian and she is going to return to me on school warming i hope =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE one more day to your birthday
happy birthday =)

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6/21/2006 05:31:00 pm

Tagged!!! again by charms

Complete the sentences below with your own words and tag the number of people of the month now.

My teacher once said that
i could have done it if i worked harder
Never in my life have I
started a trend
The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always make me smile
is him. last time...yuppx
When I'm nervous
I will get stomachache
The last time I laughed was
should be yesterday with the el mates after el com meeting
My hair is
long and straight and it is freakingly brown!!!
My feet are
small too small to be true
Last Christmas
i had fun with my cousins =)
When I turn my head left,
i see buildings and buildings lolx HDB flats actually XP
When I turn my head right,
My school bag, school stuff and the 'library'
When i look down i see,
i see my feet?!
The craziest recent event was
i actually finished the stained glass in four days since sat night whoa
By this time next year
think should be at home reading a book ba
I have a hard time understanding
eng poems though some can be quite nice at times
One time at a family gathering,
i got seriously nelegated by them...boohoohoo
You know I like-like you if
if...if...i keep on talking to you
If I won an award, the first person I'd thank is
the one who help to acheive an award
Triangles are
shapes ?
My ideal breakfast is
one when i can eat slowly, even for a piece of bread for two hours? lolx
If you make me really happy
i will end up crying lolx
Where do you plan to visit anytime soon
Japan!!!
Boys are
equal to gals. GALs are equal to BOYS!
I'd stop my wedding if
i dun like that guy?
The world could do without
terrorist...
I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than
NOTHING!!! omg i will nva ever do that omg omg omg
Most recent thing you've bought yourself
let's see..er...yesterday's lunch? Long John Sliver
Most recent thing someone else bought you
er. should be yesterday's breakfast. bread
My least favorite time of day is
12pm
And by the way, please hold on,
i nid to look out of the window. eye break - -
The last time I was high
i was with my el mates laughing like mad lolx
The person whom I last talked to told me
she dunnoe wat my email is
I shouldn't have
i dunno. i dun regret doing things cuz they are already done
Last night I
stayed up to read Wither's Legacy by John Passarella really nice book
There's this girl I know who
love my story and she is from the UK omg
There is this guy I know who
only talks to me when he is bored -_-
I'll tell the next person who makes me really happy
that i m very happy lolx
I'm listening to
the sounds made downstairs
last ate
cheese! lolx
My bedsheet is
pink and white
I smell
nth...but i m breathing in air
On my table, i have
my pencil box my book my stained glass and the...hmmm...textbooks
On my wall, I have
a blank whiteness to look at
My full name is
Hester Lau Chang Qi
This quiz is
not like those that i have done before
People you want to tag
Ariel
Grace
NingQian
yinting
winnie
charlene

i think they will all love this quiz ;)

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6/21/2006 05:08:00 pm

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED!!! again

this one is by huijin, haiwei and ariel >< all the same ones
here we go =)

Rules:
#01 Do the following without complaint!
#02 Choose 5 people to do this quiz after you finished!
#03 Leave a tag at the tagboards to say they have been tagged
#04 Start your post with "I have been tagged!" before doing this!

Your 10 Favourites
Favourite colours: light purple
Favourite foods: sashimi
Favourite songs: er. mirror mirror by m2m
Favourite movies: princess dairies I and II
Favourite sports: swimming
Favourite seasons: spring cuz there is my birthday XP
Favourite day of the week: hmmm...should be friday ba
Favourite book: all books written by Lesley Pearse
Favourite anime/cartoon: actually i really like digimon...hehe
Favourite ice-cream flavour: er. choco chips. cookies and cream.

Your 9 Currents
Current mood: sianz
Current clothes: embarrassed to sae...it is my pyjamas...
Current desktop screensaver: a background sent by haiwei during friendship day =)
Current toe-nail colour : normal colour er...beige
Current time: 5.18pm
Current annoyance: how de hell m i suppose to count the area and perimeter of the stained glass
Current thought: the questions in here
Current boy/girlfriend: currently i m single
Current book you are reading: Wither's Legacy by John Passarella

Your 8 Firsts
First best friend: Shawn but lost contact with him already. known him when i was 3
First crush: hmmm...some daycare fren dun really wanna sae
First movie: let's see...er. titanic
First piercing: when i m 5
First lie: too long ago can't rmb
First music: twinkle twinkle little stars
First car: nope
First handphone: p5

Your 7 lasts
Last cigarette : I HATE CRIGAETTES and the smell
Last drink : honey
Last car ride : the day before yesterday
Last crush : hmmm...him
Last movie seen : are the ones watched at home counted?
Last phone call : about 3++ ba
Last CD played : Rainie Yang Cheng Ling's latest album

6 Have Your Evers
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: er. wat do you mean by dated
Have you ever broken the law: yuppx i ate in the mrt BUT only once
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever skinny-dipped: nope
Have you ever been on TV: yupx
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: nope

Your 5 Things Worn On You
#01 shirt
#02 shorts
#03 underclothes
#04 sch shoes
#05 socks

Your 4 Things Done Today
#01 sitting in front of the computer lolx
#02 eat lunch
#03 did the stained glass
#04 watch garfield =)

Your 2 Things You Cant Live Without
#01 air
#02 frens

Your 1 Thing You Would Do When You're Bored
#01 read a book

Tagged people:
[1] charmaine
[2] weilin =P
[3] weiling
[4] josephine
[5] jiayi =)

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Saturday, June 17, 2006
6/17/2006 11:21:00 am

6b gathering

=) its been long since i last since them and...they grew...and mature...and TALLER!!! lolx...i m counted very short already...haiz...zi bei zi bei...saw them...shocked at their changes like...

1. yinting wears mini skirts now! omg omg omg...i still can't believe it...i rmb last time...she sae that "打死都不会穿裙" den now leh...wear skirt liao...shock ah shock ah...

2. leslie change till i totally almost cannot recognize him liao...shock ah shock ah...

well...din see him but saw haiman...wanted to see him but...haiz...nvm better not to see...if you sae that i gt no more feelings for him it is all fake...but wat can i do...nth...so just get on with life =)

get on with life...

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
6/14/2006 11:55:00 am

shopping day =)

i went shopping with my mum yesterday at POPULAR! lolx. yuppx we went to popular at bras plaza. dun really noe how to spell it but the popular there is about five stories high!!! omg omg omg i and my mum spent our whole morn there. the books there are just fantastic, plus the stationaries omg it is jus...omg...the art materials there are also very superb. it is just so nice...

anyway that side not only have popular that whole building is filled with other shops too. there are a few shops that really impress me. there is this shop which sells second-hand textbooks and workbooks. then there is another shop which sells second-hand books. all types of books i m really amazed at all he can really look after them and not let anyone steal them without he knowing cuz there are simply too many books!!! whoa i was so overwhelmed i want to go there again. there is then another shop which sells all the art materials. there are so many art stuffs there that i was over-overwhelmed lolx. the shop is called art-friend and that is really the place to buy presents =) the only prob is that cuz they only sell art materials so the art materials cost a lot but they really have a variety of things that you can choose from. then there are about three other shops that sells musical instruments. very very very cool electronic guitar and the drum set is just so wow! lol.

after that we went saka (dunno how to spell) sushi and eat lunch. yummy!!!

then we went to kimage at jurong to cut hair. i did a soft straight to my hair so now...it is still the same XP lolx. and i trim my fridge....it is really nice to have someone to help you wash your hair and you can just sleep under the nicee air-con...whoa this is life ! =) but den very ex leh...my mum and i plus together, total is about er...two hundred plus plus...haiz...so ex!

anyway this is my day of shopping with many rubber bands...books and a new hairstyle back home =)

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Monday, June 12, 2006
6/12/2006 10:00:00 pm

two wonderful day =)

class outing (11/6)

yuppx we had our class outing on the eleventh on june at marina south. yuppx that super lousy place where we din really do anything. if you ask if this outing is a success my direct answer will be NO! cuz...me as the welfare head didn't plan good enough to allow everyone in the class to enjoy the camp. we spent a lot a lot a lot of money the arcade playing daytona. well it is fun. and den we bowled twice. yuppx cost me $6 leh. very de ex lor. and den we went to orchard...well and it was raining heavily. it is really really an unsuccessful class outing cuz the gals ended up at orchard spilt into two groups and the boys are at marina south still playing daytona. sick rite. haiz...this is not even a class outing lor. we gals even thought of not going to the steamboat...well i m super guilty of it...but in the end we went and i din regret.

moreover the no of ppl who came was like 22 ONLY. can you believe it...out of 35 2b de only 20 came haiz...well i really can't blame those who are sick cuz i understand that being sick no matter how much you wanted to come you still can't come but those who are not sick and think this outing is a waste of time de. how can you think this way lah! X baddies!!!

anyway i think that the steamboat was the best i mean yea...we din seperate...we are still a class...and it was quite touching...=) i love 2b and i will always do =)


press holdings (12/6)

yuppx the next day which is on the twelvth i went to the singapore press holdings for the chi activity. at braddell. i din noe there were so many rv-ians..about all of the participants there are RV-ians aren't rv kiasu? haiz...anyway...yea...we played games get to noe more about singapore press holdings chi department and i gt quite interested at the thought of interviewing ppl bt the report that you have to write later is really...not really attractive. i din noe that the chi department of the singapore press holding did U zhou gan also. i din noe i really din noe lor until that day. and i also din noe that they organized so many activities, for example the chi new year that events all that. i realise that i have never questioned who organized all these activities thinking that they government, mps organized them but never did i expect it was the newspaper ppl =P lolx. the whole place is very big and spacious and it looks really nice with news right there before you beffore it is on tv. i dun mind working there ;)

yuppx my two very interesting days =)

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6/12/2006 09:41:00 pm

Taggggg-ed!


being tag by LEONG HAI WEI ;)
Rules: Express your love for SEVEN and get others to know more about you. Copy and paste the following into your own blog and complete all SEVEN bullets of the SEVEN questions. Then pick SEVEN people to pass it on! =) Have fun!

SEVEN things that make you smile:
  1. tickle
  2. warmth =)
  3. a cuttie doggie
  4. listening to my fave song
  5. watching my fave movie
  6. watching a touching scene
  7. watching a very nice drama series
SEVEN ways to win my heart:
  1. be nice to me
  2. do things that touched me
  3. help me
  4. make me laugh/smile
  5. make me feel comfortable
  6. understand me
  7. almost the same interest as me
SEVEN things i believe in:
  1. buddha
  2. supernatural
  3. myself in certain areas
  4. friendship
  5. magical stuffs
  6. love
  7. human beings' character that they are all not evil when born

SEVEN things i am afraid of:

  1. height
  2. insect
  3. stage X/
  4. dark
  5. failures (depends)
  6. horrible frens
  7. totally boring stories
SEVEN things i do everyday:
  1. listen to 93.3FM
  2. sms
  3. read
  4. eat
  5. bathe
  6. sleep
  7. talk XD
SEVEN people i want to see now:
  1. him cuz very long already
  2. ariel
  3. grace
  4. he jun xiang mike!!!
  5. charmaine

-can't think of any more liao...-

SEVEN people i choose to do this:
  1. charmaine
  2. ariel
  3. grace
  4. liew weilin
  5. josephine
  6. jesslyn
  7. huijin =)

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Thursday, June 08, 2006
6/08/2006 06:15:00 pm

Marina South

=) today went to marina south with gf and see well i was forced to go there by responsisbility...haiz...who ask me to be the welfare com de head...well...anyway yuppx went there...and i took the long way down to marina bay through woodlands that side haiz...i m definitely not street smart =( it took me 1 hour to reach there whereas it took the other two about er...40mins to reach there...haiz...wo hao shi bai ah! actually that side quite nice lah...not bad gt field, arcade, bowling, kites and steamboat. our main purpose well i think it is only my main purpose of going there is cuz of the steamboat and also to check the place out...yuppx. there are many steamboat restaurants and the price for adults is always 12 ex ba...haiz...no choice so we decided to use class fund to pay half and den each of us will pay the other half...yuppx forgt to tell you this marina south is our class outing location =)

NOTICE TO ALL 2B de.!

class outing is on 11th June
9am meet at marina bay mrt station
pls bring at least $15
wear class tee
lunch not provided but dinner is steamboat
AND!!! do not be late hor...=)

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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
6/07/2006 10:54:00 pm

恶魔在身边!!!!!!

omg i totally love this taiwan drama series. the following entry will be in chi =) bear with me i love this show!

"祝福本来就不属于恶魔的,至到你为我画出幸福的模样,让恶魔第一次喜欢上冬季。"
"因为你的喜欢最让我高兴。"

这些都是戏中恶魔说的一些话。=)

其实故事的内容是这样的...
有个从单亲家庭的独生女在大学二年,齐悦,因为不小心把情书给错的人,给了像恶魔的江猛。恶魔是大学第一年读美术的。他也是从单亲家庭,和父亲一起住而且父亲是学校的理事长!就因为给错了情书,害得阿猛一见到小悦就认定要她。更糟的是小悦的母亲竟然要和阿猛的爸爸结婚!小悦和阿猛既是情侣又是姐弟。他们因为有了'爱',所以一起经历很多困难,最终可是完美大结剧啊!
这的确是一布很值得看的一布戏因为,那儿的阿猛和小悦可是对很可爱的情侣让你看得不想离开电视机!=P

我爱看这布戏,要看的话,我可以惜你喔!

preview: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9tQMzS_KEYs this is the url =) you will love it!

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Sunday, June 04, 2006
6/04/2006 09:48:00 pm

WEST MALAYSIA!!!

woot!~ i m finally back in singapore, bathed and in pyjamas XD the days of sleeping in the coach, sitting on the coach and eating in the coach is finally GONE!!! hahs. anyway...this time the trip is really vvery very very enjoyable i get to be with my frens all day and know them better and better and better XP i esp love the second day's canopy walk although i somehow cried cuz of the height thingy i get to walk in between the waterfall and it is really cool having frens helping you along and you helping your frens i could really see the bond between us and i really will treasure it and i will definitely miss 2b next year...='< yuppx i met many many very very nice ppl hahs...well here is wat i understand of my classmates after this trip...

1. peixian
loud.perfect malaysian.funny at times.nice (caring).'like' zunsiong XP.like a da jiejie

2. rita
light sleeper.english person

3. charmaine
love davinci.wild.love to sleep.independant.eat a lot

4. eileen
very very very nice person.with a nice and really cool ambition.know how to play tarot cards.long arms.sexy voice XD.chiobu.blow very very big bubble

5. tzehui
like a da jiejie also.caring.eat a lot also

7. geraldine
love princess dairies.chiobu.like da jiejie

8. kexin
stylish

9. ME!!!

10. jhosy
love jap songs

11. qinai
cute at times XD.choosy eater

14. yeejin
listens to all kinds of songs.nice.very very very long hair XP

15. yingting
hahs xiao siao one.very cute also=)

16. michelle
chiobu also.eat quite a lot too

17. xiuhan
very cute.very funny.cannot have her and yueting on the same table or else the whole table will go crazy! =P

18. qiongshan
still that mature person...very mature!

19. winnie!
still have red face often.very cute

20. yunrou
caring.understanding.cute.chiobu also

21. yueting
very nice person.thankz for helping me down the walk! ;)

22. stella
chiobu also.stylish

23. weilin
very very very nice and sweet person.cute

24. kengchuan
first guy. still so blur and throw the candle away RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!

25. ben
din really talk to him through this trip.but i think he is from a rich family judging from his family car

26. nan jun
still sings but this time i think he sings to kua zhang you know...weird weird one

27. guofeng
the same! i mean like the old times love to be with *ahem!

29. jun yi
er...very tall

30. zunsiong
din know he and de who almost together le... bought her the necklace very cool oorx

31. qinhui
very weak hope he takes good care of himself, he like that how to go ns

32. khinyin
became so kind.not like the khinyin i know last year good improvement keep it up =)

33. see liang hui still the deputy chairperson>< nice person

34. wanchi
tall tall one

35. edwin
know him for a long time le but den his dressing about bit sissy sissy...shhh...

yuppx that is wat i know of my classmates after this trip. nice trip dun intend to put any pics cuz try to do that before but took a very long time! yuppx anyway...

eileen brought tarot cards there and i gt really interested...well i actually gt very interested when i was p6 but now even more interested when i heard the intrustions and all that...hehe...may be getting one =P

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, June 01, 2006
6/01/2006 01:45:00 pm

80th post

hahs this is my 80th post =)

anyway went to bugis to watch x-menIII yesterday. though the effects were nice and it was a really nice story but i can't help but feel disappointed that scott juz appeared once and he looked so...dead and jean...she is a very beautiful and powerful mutant and yet...she came out evil and totally not herself...quite disappointing...cuz i really love them...but still storm and wolferine wasn't disappointing...storm was really cool and wolferine was so darn cute though i still think that he and jean duzzen match...and the way that he cry was horrible...anyway...yuppx i watched x-men with my mum =) den we went shopping in bj. it is a very nice and big place with many gift shop at the third floor. there was another shop which sells both stationaries and gifts omg that shop rox!!! XP really really cuz they also sell markers that are used to draw comics. it is really fantastic! hmmm...get quite tired of shopping already.

tmr going to west malaysia already...feeling rather scared now...wat if...wat if...i can't sleep at night and den i miss my mum...and my bed...will i?

expressing the emptiness inside me..