Total Eclipse of the Heart;

~~Sunday, July 30, 2006~~

7/30/2006 09:56:00 pm

white band

do you noe wat does the white band symbolises? it symbolises 'make poverty history'. :-)

yuppx reading too much of poverty and realise we singaporeans are really lucky. we should all feel lucky that we have a roof over our head, a bed to slp in and...clothes to wear with all three meals or even more ready for us. ppl in africa have none of these and i really really feel sinful for having so many and yet they have none...haiz...life izzt perfect.

today as i was walking back from tuition back home...i was thinking...my chi has deprove and i m super worry...i feel so depress you noe...and for the first time i felt that i love the sunlight...it is keeping me awake and all that...and i thought it through...i only have five subjects and i m already dying because of them...wat is going to happen to me in the future...will i die? i really really feel very stressful...time just goes by and...there are really so many to do but...so little time...i want to catch up...i want to be faster than the time i want to be but can i?

aahhh...!!!

so much to do...so little time...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, July 29, 2006~~

7/29/2006 01:13:00 pm

teambuilding!!!

woots lolx had my teambuilding day yesterday and it is so fun!!!

location: west coast park
date: 28th July 2006
feelings: fun and tiring

yuppx that should sum up everything. lolx anyway hmmm...yesterday was super fun. felt the unitedness of the class and feel really happy. i really really really dunno how i m going to go pass life with them next year...boohoohoo...our cheer rockz!!! hope we will be able to get the prize for cheer. and yesterday for the star bond, our 'last' station was the entanglement and it was er...tough, we din manage to finish which was really a waste but i really find that game very nice and good lolx. hmmm...yupx

er yea...for those ppl who dun approve of ariel as a exco well you must understand ariel first before saying anything...i really hope you all dun underestimate her...she is really capable...

thankz. and another fact is i m tan now!!! woots. not as tan as many ppl but tan to my own expectation and i m happy about it.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, July 26, 2006~~

7/26/2006 11:37:00 pm

world bank

whoa. i m seriously crazy about world bank already. everything i do, everything moment of my life, i m actually thinking baout world bank, about poverty, about trading. a day away from school and into a conference can cause me to be like this. this is too much!!

today i pone school and went to the 1 degree asia conference. it is the first time i m ever at a place where so many other countries youngsters are there too. i m really fascinated. there are three speakers early in the morn. the first one was on fairtrade. he had long grey hair and love telling stories. interesting stories that really captured my attention. the second one was the ambassedor of UN. de last one was the world bank senior economist. and i think he is realy handsome. too bad he is too old. >< lolx.

anyway yuppx upon this first talk, i realise that i reall know too little. almost everything that they sae i dun understand. i think it is time i really focus on my research. haiz. and i also realise that many ppl are against world bank. many think that they are hurting others and not helping. seriously i myself also dunno how to judge this. and i feel that it is correct that everyone makes mistakes but the main thing is that some mistakes may not be forgiven by ppl so easily. i dunno...it is just that...i think i should read more about world bank.

den in my third lecture. it is by this ntu lecturer. he is an environmental econolist. i hope i spell it correctly. anyway the main point of his talk was that. every priceless things should be put a value so that they will be better compared with items with a market. shuts i m talking just like him liao. anyway, i found this quote rather fascinating, because to find out if the debts given by world bank is a worthwhile debt, just calculate the cost of the advantages and the cost of the disadvantages. this way we can compare it very well. izzt that right? but, very contridictingly, i feel that not every things can be valued. things like love, friendship, kinships. can they be valued? haiz...very weird

the last talk was about media and how to deal with interviews and medias and all that. the speaker is so funny and full of singlish which really lifted the spirits. =) lolx

anyway i had a great time in the conference, but i really miss school. jiayou 2b =)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, July 24, 2006~~

7/24/2006 08:54:00 pm

my new blogskin!!!

hehe so how is this? this is my violet blogskin by charms =) yay so happy it is violet!!!

anyway today went to attend a lecture at HCI well actually it was HCJC anyway...it was how can i sae...tiring? anyway we ALL slept through the whole thing...omg save my mondays how m i suppose to go through all 9 mondays!!! HELP!!!!

anyway i love my blogskins. <3 muackz thanks charms.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, July 21, 2006~~

7/21/2006 11:26:00 pm

101th entry

whoa this is my 101th entry. very meaningful! this means it has reached the 101 dalmantian time!!! lolx. jkl jkl jkl i m being very lame here =P

anyway. its been long since i blogged. dun really have any mood to blog lah...so kept on din update. but now i today feeling better liao so came to blog. can feel that i m having mood swings the whole week lor...dun feel like myself at all...but luckily i m feeling much better le. today's el is very fun, esp the guessing of the story i feel so cheated. lolx. den it was the script...i will try my best and get the macbeth role...though i dun really like being the main lead or a guy but still i will do my best and try to get that role...and be in that role...it is very easy to say but when you try to do it...lots and lots of time is needed.

time is like very distant to me now...with many many things started popping up...i kinda feel pressurised and yet...i was talking to my father just now. not that i can't talk to him or anything but normally when i m feeling very very very down he will be the victim, but this time i actually went to him and tell him how i feel and all that...izzt that just amazing! lolx looks like my feeling is good.

friends are very impt...good frens are equally impt. think it is cuz of ariel and grace that lifted my spirits den charm gt promoted. these are good news you noe...lolx...think i m really talking crap...so late le...better go and slp liao cyas.

weekdays are weekends and weekends are weekdays.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, July 18, 2006~~

7/18/2006 11:13:00 pm

depressing

don't you realise that we are moving apart? i dun like the feeling, yet whenever you talk i find it very hard to try and talk i feel very tired...tired of the one who prompt you to speak to me, tired of being the one trying to know you better while you know me inside out. i really find it very hard...waited for you to come out of class before cca but you ended up downstairs, you din even bother about looking for me in class while i was sitting there...waiting patiently for you...do you noe how hurtful i feel. i feel very very depressing...i hate friendships which are at this stage, it is the worst stage and i normally lose friends here. i dun want our friendship to become like this...just hope that...we can be frens foreveer...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, July 16, 2006~~

7/16/2006 09:55:00 pm

updating

lolx hello everyone hest is back in action. sorrie so long din update. just din noe wat to write and din have anything to write. lolx...talking to sonjia now and i can feel my old wounds breaking apart again...haiz...

today was a busy day...actually this weekEND was a busy day...well actually this izzt really call a weekend it should be weekDAYs. i mean really sat and sun is busier...i finally got time to sit and blog. realise that i gt frustrated easily nowadays...think should be cuz sleeping very late everyday and waking up very early.

sometimes i really wonder if i didn't treat her like this will she still be like how she is now? will i be like this now...will i even be the same...haiz...i dunno...

恨一个人好难啊！！！

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, July 12, 2006~~

7/12/2006 08:18:00 pm

my disgusting father.

omgomgomg i really really really can't stand my father!!! for the past few days he was sick and den you noe...he has er...cough, flu, den cough will have the 'tan'. den it is like...he so disgustingly spit his 'tan' into the dustbin home one mind you, without a tissue paper and wat my mum to clean it. wat is this lah? does it means that a woman must do wat a man tells her to do? my mum izzt a maid lor i dun see why she, no WE must endure living with someone so disgusting under the same roof, in the same house. AAAHHH... den it is like he dun use the tissue one lor, he gt the 'tan' right he wil run to the toilet and make some digusting noise. i really feel very disgusted at home...EWWW!!!!

anyway...hmmm...that day saw jiao hui, yuppx i dun mind saying it out loud but i think he was my first crush hehe...yuppx i think he is in sji now if i m not wrong...very tall and our eyes met...hehe...really miss him and after calculating...realise that i will meet him once every two years...lolx you see ah...p4 he left daycare, that is the last time i saw him in daycare. den p6 saw him in lot one...that time i was with my baby cousin den he was shaking his head when he saw me =P hehe...den now at the mrt station...well i think i have definitely grown fatter a lot...haiz...and shorter...boohoohooo...lolx but miss him lah...very nice guy... =)

hmmm...been having headache spells these days more frequently...and just realise that i might have blood disorder cuz that is in my gene...well my father side most of them have lah so the possiblity of me having is also very high...so my whole familiy also have headache spells also...today's is more serious...in the bus den suddenly very headache lor...haiz...it is getting worst i think...i think this has gt sth to do with the earth...earth too...hmmm...environmental issues getting worst ba...haiz...

jess is the chair person le!!! lolx quite shocking but very happy for her...lolx. you see ah...the five of us -- ariel, josephine, grace, jess and me-- den it is like ariel and jose are sc den jess and grace are chairperson den i m RINGLESS!!! woot! let's stay it this way til we graduate ok? lolx ;)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, July 08, 2006~~

7/08/2006 03:50:00 pm

debates

AAAHHH!!! i m going crazy cuz of that stupid flash and the stupid me who can't and dunno how to use flash!!! anyway today went to toapayoh hub cuz there will be a debates for us to watch. in de end it is a new tv programme that mediacorp is going to have called "The ARENA". quite interesting lah. you get to debates on tv >< and den they also change a little of the debates rule where you muz accept the poi-s and cannot reject it. den the first speaker has 3.30 mins, the second speaker has 4 mins den the last speaker has 4.30 mins. den there is also a group rebuttal session before the 3rd speaker do their rebuttals. it is quite cool lor. the host will be adrian pang. that dadi! lolx. quite nice lah...and it will be in channel 5 next year on 9th of jan. X)

at first going there i thought that it is a MUST to join in the debates which scared me out of my wits cuz i was there with AYESHA, NATALIE and li qin. haiz...yuppx luckily it is not...and =) very fun

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, July 06, 2006~~

7/06/2006 05:21:00 pm

the seating arrangement.

i dun really want to talk about this anymore...cuz this really cause me to feel really really bad...now the class's mood i think have all gone down...but still i wanna blog about this not talking about this incident, but talking about the ppl involved and after that stayed a while to talk about it and all that...

well generally, wat i want to sae is...

2b have very nice ppl.

eg. stella
you might think that cuz she shouted at gf den she is not good or she is very 'fiery'. well in another angle, she was just protecting her fren, loyalty. cuz winnie started crying...well and i think that was the last straw that make her burst right in front of gf. i was shock though...den after talking to mrs tan, she realise that she was at wrong and she felt guilty. 知错能改，是个好孩子！

another example is winnie.
she cried, not cuz she kana scolded but only cuz she put all the blame on herself and she acknowledge her responsibilties. in some ways ppl might think that she is stupid that she blames herself when she wasn't at fault at all but in another way, she is actually being a very responsible chairperson. it is just that she can't take the stress that she broke down. she is also a very nice gal =)

den er, there is geri.
the first impression geri give ppl last year was that she was quite proud and all that, but after a year she has changed, and in today's incident, she was running here and there firstly trying to console winnie (who cried) den went to gf to try to cool him down. ppl might think that she is a kpo, but i think that she was trying to make 2b as calm as before and trying to calm them down...well though she din really success but she is also trying her best.

hmmm. den it is gf.
well...he is good cuz throughout the whole incident, being scolded by stella, he din react at all, i know that with his temper he can just punch her anytime, but he controlled cuz he knows that by punching her won't help much. well that is a good point, a gentleman nva touches the gal. den after that he apologise to stella and geri for pointing fingers at them. well he din provoke them and still kana scolded but he still apologise. i guess that is good =)

next well be yunrou.
she din seem to be doing anything when the whole incident happened but she was the one who was thinking calmly and den after that inform mrs tan. well i guess that is nice too =)

there are just too many examples but conclusion is

2b ppl are very nice

proud to be a 2b de and hope that they all won't cry le
*smile =)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, July 04, 2006~~

7/04/2006 08:59:00 pm

sch day =)

wow its been long since i last blogged =) it is so nice to be back in school after three days of 'weekend' lolx.

today is just like any other day...where i go to school and THERE IS THE SPEECH!!! i m suppose to make a speech at the assembly. really must thank the comp club ppl that keep on giving out prizes that there is no more time for me to talk. i was freaking out anyway yuppx den i m suppose to give my speech on youth festival IN CHINESE tmr through the pa system...i wonder if it is really through pa or m i going to say it during irp. haiz...anyway...wish me good luck.

den the next lsn was dance. yuppx i handed up my dance assignment den...IT WENT MISSING!!! after recess!!! it was on kc's table and geri said she put it there...and kc said it was in between his bag and his file on the table! FREAKY!!! it is like (as charm says) our class is cursed of the losing of 'art' pieces. first it was last year's art piece...only mine was found at the aircon that area, then there was another time when we lost it again, den now this! izzt it freaky??? well we can't really blame kc and geri...so we have to REDO! freaky...

anyway...yuppx den kana tricked by blur winnie that today have to go to LT1 at 145. in the end it was yesterday haiz...yuppx den after that skip lunch and went for el with my el mates (muackz! lolx) we discuss about wat we are going to do for our group's macbeth production. i kana love this group cuz they all very enthu den the sec ones they are very eager to know about the story and all that...really love them! muackz =) yuppx we decided on modern context analysing macbeth this character. won't it just be fun =)

yuppx den at 4pm, went to meet ms ek and mr desmond lim with the thimun ppl, cuz tmr there will be an interview by the reporters cuz of the IMF talk. well...i kinda got into thimun...so i kinda got into this. anyway i was so tired and really zone out quite a bit lah...so when ms ek ask me the ques i was so freak out that i dunno how to anwer i can really experience mind-blank! well and i answered crap i even asked her to repeat the question...AAHHH!! izzt that freaky? this is such an eventful day that i think i m really very tired.

well...i kinda pass this round of training >< anyway i came out of the office and found my sian-diao el mates (lolx) anyway they also very tired...can see....hope they rest well ah...today is charm's dry shoot, hope her fingers are alright...and dun kill anyone!!!!!!!!!!!

yuppx me, grace and ariel went to lot one after that with VERY LITTLE MONEY! and we bought ms bose's soft toy dog which is 26.3 after my discount card is used. we are dividing between 7 people, me, ariel, grace, jose, charm, jess and christ. yuppx so each one about 3++ quite alright lah. well anyway i noe i will miss ms bose a lot!!! boohooohoo...

well anyway ppl i nid to practise my speech! wish me good luck! =) ty

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