it is just tmr.

i dunno the feeling on stage, but i definitely know the feeling backstage. it is nervous, it is scarying, and it is driving me crazy.

i dunno the feeling of peparation because i was busy with debates, but i do noe the feeling of waiting for the day to come. and the day is tmr.

i really hope el will be able to get wat we have always wanted --- gold.

i dun deny the fact that i lost the passion for el before. it wasn't in sec 1 or 2 but it was this year, during debates. well it wasn't about drama and team spirit in debates, it was more of a knowledge, language prob. it was your personal problem that no one else can help you. it was so different. it was so different that it killed my passion for el. but now, seeing the things on stage, seeing how hard every single one of the main cast and the crew has put in, my passion is back again.

i rmb that time, when we were sec one. syf was totally like a stranger to me. i just know that wat i needed to do at that time was not to disturb the seniors and that they are really putting in a lot of a effort. go to watch syf, and cheer them on. and that is wat i did. they performed. and we tot that they were good. well to us, they were good. but den when the results came back, they were crying. it was disheartening. esp when...even though they cried, they still tried to hide it from us, did not want us to worry, and from their face we can already see the red swollen eyes. i will never forget that scene. from then on i rmb everyone of us was certain (well at least in my level) that our ultimate aim is to achieve a gold during syf. this is not only our goal but it is also a goal and expectation that our seniors expect from us. every year, after the seniors left, in their notes, there will always be syf. and it was always the same one, syf must do your best, etc.

it has always been our goal and finally tmr is the day. the day that we have waited for for two years to present ourselves in front of the judges, to the school that we do deserve their good treatment.

if you ask me if i love el, the answer will be yes. if you ask me if i ever regretted entering el, the answer will be no. and these are from the bottom of my heart. el was always this motivation, the place for relaxation, the place where yea...i found frens that really understand me. the place were i laughed and really the only place where i can do whatever i really want to do and that is to let go of myself.

we just have to do our best, everyone focus and be serious, have enough warm-up, work together and that is all we needed. we have been doing it for months, working hard at it for months, just for tmr. that twenty mins. WE MUST DO IT!

JIAYOU EL!!!