SICK!!!

i feel quite sick lately...with the complications of friendship and relationship...i juz dunno wat ppl are thinking now...things juz keep coming up suddenly...the true images of friends juz appeared and it is really complicated tat i totally dun like...i want to understand them yet...they are always changing...changing into a different person that i dunno if they are good or bad now...pressure in 'no-hwk' is getting bigger and bigger...i dunno if i like it when there is no hwk or wat but i noe that i will gt very frustrated when there is no hwk cuz i won't noe if there is any hwk...well you noe...my short and long term memory loss prob...

i can't laugh as heartily as i used to laugh...i want to go back to the past...the innocent faces i see in sec1 well not exactly innocent but the faces of loss and nice-ness in friends and not the evil nature of them...i wonder if i m changing or izzt ppl who are changing...and the more i think of this the more i will think of end of the year...i noe it is only march and i also wanna think of only tmr but now...i m starting to think of wat will happen if i go into a class of totally unfamiliar faces...when i leave charm or geri...i dunno wat i will do you noe...and i will start crying...and get all depressed and everything...i dun want to think so far yet...i really dunno why...AAAHHH!!!!