Death...

Death...are you afraid of dying? have you seen someone died...slowly and painfully...my answer is no. but today at 1640 i received a sms saying that my grandfather is dead...though i have been expecting it...i still was not able to believe it. yea...my maternal grandfather is dead. yeah...and i dunno wat to sae...my el buddies were the first few who know it...and they all din noe wat to sae...neither do i acutally...den haiwei was there...make me cry a little den sae that dun allow me to cry and we hug hug hug...i juz feel so comfy with her around...safe and comfy...death...yup my grandfather is dead...yea...and i can't go to school on tue. i tried argueing with my mum den she ask me this ques "Which was more important, studies or grandfather?" DUH! of cuz it is grandfather...but lessons...i really can't miss any...neither can i miss cca nor cid i dun wanna miss any...i will miss my frens too...but haiz...no choice can't argue...now my weekend duzzen look like a weekend anymore...i look like another week to me...i feel sick and sad. juz sad. sad without tears. sad without talking. sad. juz sad. rushing through hw now...wanna thankz those who showed concern...ty very much appreaciated them very much...ty...