Between your stead and your very good frens which one would you help if in a difficult situation?

i had tried to answer this ques...when you say it, it will surely be friends...but when in real life...the one that you will help is your stead...only in rare occasion you will be on the same side as your very very good fren... this is reality. and i have learnt to accept it.

i feel very frustrated, irritated by my mixed feelings...wat ist he exact feeling i have for him...i want to noe...izzt juz frens or...sth else. i want to noe, i feel empty without him, i dunno wat to do. help me. stuck with my cid the da gang thingy (my father is doing it), so i came to write this...very frustrated...and tired...i m tired of running...i want to stop...juz like a full-stop '.' juz stop everything from moving...from running...jus stop .

i dunno if wat i did is correct...i hope it is...

today at last finally it is el meeting...had been looking forward but not as fun as i had expected...i expected more of the orientation...of the sec one orientation like wat we had last year but this year was different, we were in the special room one the whole time...sian lor...den it is like (sorrrie to sae) the games were quite boring...though i noe that making games is very difficult lah, but today's game really is quite boring...sorrie...but still it is good be to with el mates at last...being a senior at last hahs and being with senior at last...hahs

and there is ayesha...i dunnno why i still dislike her so much, but in el, it is so difficult to hate someone in there...except 'E'. well i dunno why i dislike her...i dunno if it is cuz i can't bear to face her after how i treated her...i mean we were best frens before after all...well maybe i did have a little AP so i can take to her? hahs well...do i?

Sec 1 juniors one of them is extreme AP, it is like seeing another ayesha...haiz...there are two in 1b and i m freakingly happy, one of them very very very very very...etc. sweet, her looks and height and size look like the combination of yueting and charm, but her back view is surely charm's hahs...no wonder i had such good feelings with her...but her eyes are smaller than both yueting and charm. her name is call weilin. omg she is really 1b de lor, it is like she is the combination of yueting, charm and weilin hahs and her quiet character is like zhiyi hahs. and she is so chio, chiobu yi ke, no wonder zunxiang is her fren haiz...that guy...thinking of her...i feel better...hahs...the wonders of juniors hahs...hope i will get along well if the rest of the sec ones and of cuz ayesha...haiz...hope so...

and i hope that i can noe my feelings for him soon...so that i won't regret...and hope he knows...