Total Eclipse of the Heart;

~~Tuesday, February 28, 2006~~

2/28/2006 09:38:00 pm

RVIP

there has been many ppl saying that RVIP is very stressful and teachers have been teaching things that are quite useless. is that entirely true? well i admit, at first i also think that all this that we learn are quite useless, but as lessons go on and more reflections are done, i realise one thing...i m growing.

after every reflections, you reflect on what had happened that day and you wil realise that actually you really learn alot, and it is true, you dun learn the knowledge, you learn the skill and the skill is everything. with the skills, you can do everything. it is the same as, if you noe the basic you will know everything. wow actually.

today, there are two things that make me really worked up.

1. i realise that the world is so unfair!
2. ppl's mouth can be so darm poisonous (direct translation) => dun assume!

yea this two things made me very worked up today. dun wanna elaborate on it...cuz i dun wanna be angry again.

yup...and of cuz the relationship with ppl is very impt also. about frens treating frens as good frens or competitor...real big difference! about the result of offending other ppl. haiz...all very impt.

there is a bee above me so i think i will go off first!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, February 27, 2006~~

2/27/2006 06:52:00 pm

m i too short for my age?

haiz...m i really short or is that guy too tall? today after yu yan shun lian ban, geri and i walked to the mrt station den we met two juniors, two same class, one gal one boy, both wanna be sc, both taller den me, den the guy's name is zhang shaowei, den he is 1.75cm still growing!!! i can't believe it lah den it is like i keep asking him why iz he so tall den he sae cuz i short. den geri told me he is 14 from hk. yea so he is forteen and is taller den me ok lah i kinda accept. den he sae that his birthday is on the tenth of feb, that means he is older than me so being taller den me duzzen matter lah but den hor he sae that in one month plus i also can't grow to his height so rite
i m still short. booohoohooo...m i realy short? but it is in my genes ma you can't blame me...aiya juz feel really zi bei lor...haiz...dunt talk about it liao lah getting more and more frustrated!!!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, February 24, 2006~~

2/24/2006 09:04:00 pm

illnesses

everyone around me is ill...charm din even come to school yesterday it was misery misery and misery! juz really hope that everyone will take good care of themselves and not fall ill anymore. geog project date line is around the corner, yeah...

today gt cca...very fun...the fact that rennee is a good teacher can make it very fun already hahs...den after cca very tired. realise that frens nid to be of same interest so that talking can carry on among them. let today i was talking to grace and ariel on the mrt i juz kept on talking and talking and talking and to think that those words that came out izzt a little bit of singlish at all! hahs yea i was telling them about the interview by the MOE officers this late morn, but before that we were in ms ek's office to wait for the teachers who were being interviewed.
this conversation with ms ek and mr lee allow me to think of how powerful our motto is and i m very very very proud of having this motto. li4 de2 li4 gong1, hua4 yu2 hua4 wan2. it really have a very deep meaning yet it is so meaningful. li de li gong, means that to contribute to the society and have good virtues. hua yu hua wan, means influencing those who are naughty and playful into a good and dilligent student, and i think that is exactly wat RV is doing. i really find it very heart-warming. i think i was the worse speaker in the whole interview cuz most of the 10 pupils selected have either one or two rings. den those who do not have a ring can express themselves so well unlike me. haiz...i think i was the worst! nvm it is over let's not talk about it. yea...

think i gt nth to talk about liao hahs yea so bye!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, February 21, 2006~~

2/21/2006 10:24:00 pm

funeral

yupps today my grandfather is cermated...yea...aunts, uncles, and mummy cried very hard...gt sound somemore...make me cry also...yea...i cried...cannot stop after that haiz...thought through a question today

do they burn the body with the coffin or only the body?

yea...well no one really knows the answer except those who work at the cremation centre.

first time walk on the streets and road with shoes on. chi traditions cannot help. and i realise i m really really very very fat!!! i m FAT!!! AHHHH!!!! muz go on diet liao but i think i m already on one it is juz tat this few days nth to do at the funeral so keep on eating muz go exercise liao!!! hahs...well...

HAZEL is so CUTE!!!! hahs well at least she prefer me to jeryl or andy hahs...well she is very cute...too cute to be true...naughty also...hahs...

time passes fast...it is already the fifth day gong gong died...and time passes so fast at the funeral...now i m pia-ing hwk...really really really muz thankz charmaine for bringing the hwk all the way to cck to give me...and realy really muz thankz haiwei for accompanying charmaine while waiting for me...at least charm was not fed up with me arriving so late...yea...haiwei muz take good care of yourself ah...dun let me worry for you...haiz...

skipping school is thWORST experience for me...i gt a feeling geri and charm gt fed up with me keep on asking them ques...yea...listening in lsn is the most impt thing to me in academics hahs...well...yea really thankz...

thankz...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, February 17, 2006~~

2/17/2006 10:03:00 pm

Death...

Death...are you afraid of dying? have you seen someone died...slowly and painfully...my answer is no. but today at 1640 i received a sms saying that my grandfather is dead...though i have been expecting it...i still was not able to believe it. yea...my maternal grandfather is dead. yeah...and i dunno wat to sae...my el buddies were the first few who know it...and they all din noe wat to sae...neither do i acutally...den haiwei was there...make me cry a little den sae that dun allow me to cry and we hug hug hug...i juz feel so comfy with her around...safe and comfy...death...yup my grandfather is dead...yea...and i can't go to school on tue. i tried argueing with my mum den she ask me this ques "Which was more important, studies or grandfather?" DUH! of cuz it is grandfather...but lessons...i really can't miss any...neither can i miss cca nor cid i dun wanna miss any...i will miss my frens too...but haiz...no choice can't argue...now my weekend duzzen look like a weekend anymore...i look like another week to me...i feel sick and sad. juz sad. sad without tears. sad without talking. sad. juz sad. rushing through hw now...wanna thankz those who showed concern...ty very much appreaciated them very much...ty...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, February 14, 2006~~

2/14/2006 05:54:00 pm

my BEST valentines day ever...ty

yup today is valentines day and it is haiwei's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIWEI!!! and HAPPY VALENTINeS DAY TO ALL COUPLES!!! hahs...yup...yea...today is my best valentines day ever...yea...

in the morn as i stepped into the class...i was so shocked that there were sweets...hand-made flowers...and sweets hahs yea...shocked...everyone's table is the same...den i gave him his gift and den to charm and geri lastly to haiwei hehe yea really hope she likes hers well she ask me to buy one hahs...

to haiwei i have never-ending thank you-s cuz she really help me a lot and for so many years...she is still there...i really appreaciate her...

these are the thank you-s i have to return to her hahs:

- thank you for being there for me when i nid you

- thank you for giving me sound advices

- thank you for going home with me

- thank you for listening to me nag and nag and nag hahs

- thank you for accompanying me go shopping

- thank you for accompanying me to the hair saloon for my first-without-mum hair cut

- thank you for talking to the gal who sat in front of you in p1 during model student presentation

- thank you for sending me jap songs

- thank you for giving me presents

- thank you for your encouragements

- thank you for your hugs...

- thank you for knowing me so many years

- thank you for being there...i realy really appreaciated it...really...

- thank you for being my friend even after so many years since we last met

- thank you for remembering my name in p1

now it is the sorrie

- sorrie for forgetting your name at first

- sorrie for forgetting your birthday at first

- sorrie for not accompanying you sometimes

- sorrie for asking you to accompany me

- sorrie for letting you down sometimes

LETS BE FRIENDS...forever...

yea i nid to do homework le bye!!!! hehe

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, February 11, 2006~~

2/11/2006 10:18:00 pm

CHILDEN!!!!

haiz...my head aches like hell now!!! and do you noe why? it is partly because of my FAVE cousin, Heyden. He is five this year, but still I CAN'T STAND HIM!!! i m juz back from a family dinner. and during dinner i was sitting with him!!! and den it is like his father ask me and jerlene jiejie to take care of him. HEYDEN is CHOOSY!!! very choosy!!! this is the second time i m 'feeding' him and i still rmb the last time which was like last sat? i gave up feeding him. this time i din give up but he really is hor...haiz...started singing for nth...den talk and talk and talk. talk nvm but den he talk softly and in a lang that no one understand and the main thing is he is CHOOSY! PICKY WITH FOOD!!! haiz...i cannot stand small little kids i can't! i really can't juz one five year old boy and i m already having headaches...i dun have this patient at all...luckily i m the only child...phew...

tiring week...juz blew up cuz my hw is not done...i noe it is only sat but den HW!!! haiz...today's geog project is still alrite...i suddenly feel that a group work without boys is so...relaxing? and peaceful...hmmm...hahs

ok nid to get back to my maths liao cya

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, February 07, 2006~~

2/07/2006 10:32:00 pm

a day! hahs

tmr is gf's birthday wish him all the best hahs

today in cid i really love all my grp members hahs...they really ver guai did some things out of all those messy notes that we found and they are so cooperative hahs members - jhos, ariel and kc (not that like kc but he is very good group member). den today the da gang that huang lao shi showed the rest...i was so embarrassed lah...they shouldn't do that...i mean it is like...shouldn't like print for everyone...they all may think that we are like want to be teacher's pet or sth like that...but it is not true lor we juz wanted to do well in cid...

hey i named my two hamsters for the guy-moondust gal-starlight very nice name i like the name it sounds so nice...now the hamsters juz wake up and eat and den slp den eat den slp den eat den slp... haiz...dunno how leh i still dun dare to pick it up cuz i very scared that it will dislike me or i will disturb it...hmmm...dunno wat to do...

geog hw is piling up...very stressed up by geog still dunno wat is ocean currents...but humidity was quite interesting...
the new four subjects...i choose economics and biomedical sciences...i wanna be a doc hahs and a doc i will be hahs

go and continue doing hw liao bye

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, February 06, 2006~~

2/06/2006 08:50:00 pm

an ABSoLUTE boyfrind hahs

just read finish absolute boyfriend book one and this is the conclusion i have for a PERFECT boyfriend!!! hahs see it for yourself ba...

- a tad of jealousy
- a tad of stubborn
- caring
- easy-going
- gentle
- reliable
- macho (knows when to stand up and fight for his rights)
- a bit silly at times
- gourmet chef
- a whiz at fitness
- a tad mischievous
- knows how to put up a good fight
- neat
- knows how to defend me in the face of danger
- capable
- intelligent
- cute
- good taste

hahas this is really 101% perfect boyfriend but i believe that no one is that perfect so let this be juz a story ba =)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

2/06/2006 05:55:00 pm

a tiring day

=D did i tell you that yesterday i brought home to hamsters, a male and a female, from geri's house? they very very very very the cute leh...hehe...now thinking of names for them. they very cute den love to slp hahs i think that is why hamster's bedding is so impt hahs

today after school i went to the library to search books on silk road. search for about half an hour but still can't find anything. den after that i use the comp to search i found a lot of books but...i only found two on the shelves...haiz...sad...and den i think not all of the data inside is suitable for our topic lor very tiring you noe walking up and down up and down juz to find these books...i realise how good the internet is already really muz thankz the ppl who discovered or invented the internet.
i also went to search for the care of pet hamsters, but i can't find any at all omg lor that is even more tiring, all the books are on dogs, whereas in the internet, you juz type of words 'pet hamster' you can gt all you want everything that you want...INTERNET...is so good...hahas

in the morn during assembly, there was a rainbow...it was so beautiful...you can clearly see the seven colours on the clouds...this is the clearest rainbow i had ever seen and i stared at it for such a long time...wat a beautiful sight...and i made a wish...secret cannot tell you hehe =P but it was really beautiful...

lots of hw today...oh yea! this is the website to see how to care for pet hamsters = http://exoticpets.about.com/cs/hamsters/a/hamstercare.htm if you have hamsters you might wat to go there and see also...still thinking of the hamsters' name...and this is the website for the names of hamster = http://exoticpets.about.com/cs/namelists/a/namesham.htm very cool rite? HAHS well gtg now cya ;)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, February 03, 2006~~

2/03/2006 11:04:00 pm

Between your stead and your very good frens which one would you help if in a difficult situation?

i had tried to answer this ques...when you say it, it will surely be friends...but when in real life...the one that you will help is your stead...only in rare occasion you will be on the same side as your very very good fren... this is reality. and i have learnt to accept it.

i feel very frustrated, irritated by my mixed feelings...wat ist he exact feeling i have for him...i want to noe...izzt juz frens or...sth else. i want to noe, i feel empty without him, i dunno wat to do. help me. stuck with my cid the da gang thingy (my father is doing it), so i came to write this...very frustrated...and tired...i m tired of running...i want to stop...juz like a full-stop '.' juz stop everything from moving...from running...jus stop .

i dunno if wat i did is correct...i hope it is...

today at last finally it is el meeting...had been looking forward but not as fun as i had expected...i expected more of the orientation...of the sec one orientation like wat we had last year but this year was different, we were in the special room one the whole time...sian lor...den it is like (sorrrie to sae) the games were quite boring...though i noe that making games is very difficult lah, but today's game really is quite boring...sorrie...but still it is good be to with el mates at last...being a senior at last hahs and being with senior at last...hahs

and there is ayesha...i dunnno why i still dislike her so much, but in el, it is so difficult to hate someone in there...except 'E'. well i dunno why i dislike her...i dunno if it is cuz i can't bear to face her after how i treated her...i mean we were best frens before after all...well maybe i did have a little AP so i can take to her? hahs well...do i?

Sec 1 juniors one of them is extreme AP, it is like seeing another ayesha...haiz...there are two in 1b and i m freakingly happy, one of them very very very very very...etc. sweet, her looks and height and size look like the combination of yueting and charm, but her back view is surely charm's hahs...no wonder i had such good feelings with her...but her eyes are smaller than both yueting and charm. her name is call weilin. omg she is really 1b de lor, it is like she is the combination of yueting, charm and weilin hahs and her quiet character is like zhiyi hahs. and she is so chio, chiobu yi ke, no wonder zunxiang is her fren haiz...that guy...thinking of her...i feel better...hahs...the wonders of juniors hahs...hope i will get along well if the rest of the sec ones and of cuz ayesha...haiz...hope so...

and i hope that i can noe my feelings for him soon...so that i won't regret...and hope he knows...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, February 02, 2006~~

2/02/2006 09:07:00 pm

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

wishing all of you 'gong xi fa cai', 'wan shi ru yi', 'xin xiang shi cheng', ... hahs...yea happy new year!

today is already the 2nd Feb, get many projects, feeling very excited...tmr is the BIG day, many many events on tmr

1. Jhosy's birthday
2. RenJie's birthday
3. L.A. presentation
4. CCA (with sec one juniors!!!)

omg omg omg tmr is one BIG day!!! hope jhos like her present...tmr is a big day...hahas...looking forward!!!

expressing the emptiness inside me..