memories i would do better without...

things haben been going as i expected this weeek...dun wanna elaborate juz wanna noe wat have i done wrong...wat have i done...was i too direct that i hurt him...i dun want to...i juz want a fren and that is all...nth else...a good fren...a fren that talks to me...make me laugh...nth else...i hope we are not over yet...i still want frens...maybe one day i will fall for him...without knowing it...but i still want him as a fren now...for now for this year also can...juz a very good fren...

went back to sv today...found memories i could have do better without...memories of us...it is everywehere in the building...found back my old nick -- hamster --... the old frens of mine...i miss them...i really miss them...i miss sv...i really miss the life in there at least it is so much better den now...i think...teachers helping you all the way...if you gt prob you juz go to them...but now it is all different...how i wish i can hug them real tightly and sit facing the field all day and start to think about wat had happened...wat exactly happened to me all my life...i have been running and avoiding...running and running...i did stop once...but the pain in me is still there...now someone wants me to stop...should i? the wound was not ok yet...i dun dare...i dunno wat will happen...and i dun want to try...i juz want to led a peaceful life...