i feel odd...

i feel odd...i feel really odd...by now in our normal school days we will have tests already...it is already the week four and i haben learnt anything really really proper yet...projects juz keep coming in my ways!!! i can't stand it...i really dunno how to do the physics project...all the ideas that you all came up with sounds terrible to me...there is nth i can sae because i myself duzzen have any ideas...i wish i have so that i can stop hearing your ideas but...i dun...i feel really stressed up with all the ideas and that...i feel frightened...scared...scared that you all will mistaken...scared that i will make the wrong decisions...i want to the hardworking and only hardworking gal...i dun like making decisions...i dun like doing everything because if there is a little wrong the fault will be mine...i make decision based on my own personal strong believes so sometimes i really wonder if my believes are correct...m i doing the right thing...m i doing wat i m suppose to be doing...m i doing wat my mission to earth is...i really dunno.........is 14 a good no or a bad one? why does fourteens have so much trouble or izzt me only...everything nid an explanation...everything nid reflections...everything nid to do research...ppl are improving while i feel that i m only deproving...m i? well the obvious answer is yes...my mind is not as good as before...my height from 156 drop to 155...i feel terrible very terrible...i m not going up i m going down...BUT I WANT TO MOVE UPWARDS...but it so difficult and i feel tired...izzt me or izzt my imagination???

i nid determination...all i have is determination....determination and you can pull through...trust yourself hester...you CAN do it!!!